In Drummer Heaven

Moving On

I can't see Tommy and it's so much harder than I thought it would be. I can't even function properly. I mean I was in love with him, I am in love with him.

The past two weeks have been absolute hell, aside from going to the studio I stay home. I mean I can drink my pain there and it's cheaper. I can't bring myself to go to the bar because I know Tommy and I can't bear to see him move on in front of me.

I pull my blankets up over my head when I hear the front door open. I hear someone walk up the stairs and into my bedroom. I really don't want to see anyone, I just want to live in my cocoon of blankets and sadness.

"Darcy come on, it's been two weeks." Dani's voice rings as she pulls the blankets from my head. "You've gotta go breathe fresh air and feel the sun on your skin."

"How about this, you and CC break up and then we'll see how you feel in two weeks time." I say and bury my in my pillow.

"Darc, I know it hurts now but you can't lay around feeling sorry for yourself." She says. "Come on, get up and get showered because we're meeting Poison at the bar in half an hour."

I shower and get dressed and Dani and I start to walk down to the bar. Bret, Bobby, CC, and Rikki are all sitting around the table. CC looks up and laughs.

"Look at who's back to the land of the living." He says and I half smile.

"We missed you." Bret says and I roll my eyes.

We spend the next while drinking and joking around. I missed hanging out with everyone I'll give them that but I do miss my room, at least there I don't have to worry about accidentally running into Tommy.

I go up to the bar to get more to drink and arms wrap tightly around my shoulders.

"I honestly thought you died, Red." Nikki's voice says and I laugh.

"Well I missed you too." I say and he leans on the bar beside me.

Nikki has become my best friends of sorts, I mean he's pretty fucking cool. The only thing is I can't really hang around with him without being around Tommy so I haven't seen him in a while.

I frantically look around the bar because I feel like Tommy isn't far behind Nikki. I hear Nikki laugh.

"Don't worry, Tommy isn't around. Actually the only place I've seen him is the studio." He admits and I sigh. "He misses you, he hasn't moved on."

"I miss him too, I can't bring myself to move on." I admit.

"It'll get easier, I promise." Nikki says and ruffles my hair. "Now if you excuse me, Red. I've got a pretty little brunette waiting for me." He laughs and I roll my eyes.

"See you later, man whore." I say and he smirks.

"Catch you later, Red." He says and walks back the way he came.

I didn't notice Bret had walked up beside me and is talking to a blonde beside him. I roll my eyes and wait for my drink. The blonde blows Bret off and he sighs.

"I heard what you said, about not being able to move on." He says and I look over to him.

"Yeah." I sigh. "It's hard to move on after being with someone as amazing as Tommy. It would take someone just as amazing."

"Someone amazing, huh?" Bret asks. "What about me?"

"Pardon me?" I ask and he laughs.

"Just pizza and no expectations. Tomorrow at seven." He says.

"You asking me out?" I ask and he nods. "Okay."

The next day Bret and I walk towards the pizza joint. We laugh and joke around and it was pretty fun, I mean it wasn't like a date with Tommy---

Darcy stop it! I've gotta stop comparing everything to freaking Tommy! Bret is funny and nice and.... Not Tommy.

Tommy

Nikki and Vince had pulled me to a bar, as soon as we got there I saw the girls' band and Poison. Why would they drag me back here when Mick told me to stay away from Darcy until I was able to move on and I haven't been able to move on.

We sit down at the table and I do a quick head count. Darcy isn't here and neither is Bret. Huh, well as long as Darcy isn't here I guess. Dani comes over and sits on CC's lap.

"What's happening, T-Bone? It's been a while." She says and I smile.

"Hey look who's back!" Jade laughs as she plops down beside me.

"Hey Jadie." I say.

We all shoot the shit for a while but after a while Darcy not being around it really starting to get to me. Dani is standing by herself at the bar when I walk up to her.

"Hey Dan, can I ask you something?" I wonder and she nods.

"Of course, T-Bone. You know this." Dan says as she sips her drink.

"Where's Darcy?" I ask and she gives me a look.

"With Bret. He asked her out last night. She's forcing herself to move on from you. Personally I don't think she's ready." Dani explains. "I think Darcy is still crazy about you, Tommy."

Bret asked her out?

I knew I was right about him! I knew he had a thing for Darcy! Hell, I'm willing to bet that he's the one that slipped that picture to the label. I'm going to kill him! But right now he has what I want. Bret has my Darcy.

Bret has Darcy. That kills me to think about that but she needs to move on.