Sunshine

bab 48

"Dude.. aku tak rasa aku boleh. This isn't right. We're not supposed to do this. I'm not supposed to do this."

"Hei, come on lah. Kau tak buat salah pun. Rileks lah."

"Gila apa aku tak buat salah. Aku ganggu plan parents dia. Esh, taknak aku. Dahlah bro. Aku quit."

Ikram terdiam selama 10 saat. Dia memandang tepat mata Farish. Tepat melalui app Facetime di handphone nya.

"Kau seriously give up sebab tu je? Ariana macam mana?"

"Yelah, parents dia kau kena fikir jugak. There's pros and cons in every situations, termasuk hal ni."

"Ha betul. The pros in this matter, ialah, parents dia dapat nampak kesungguhan kau. Usaha kau nak menang anak diorang. Tak ke macam wow."

"Wow kepala otak kau. Aku fikir punya gempaklah plan kau. Rupanya kau suruh aku pergi jumpa parents dia terus, macam tu je pulak tu."

"Habis kau nak buat apa? Itu solution terbaik tahu tak. Kau jugak yang kata, apa apa kena fikir pasal parents dia. Ni aku dah bagi plan, kau complain pulak. Aku lesing japgi kang."

Farish ketawa melihat telatah Ikram yang mahu memukulnya melalui telefon. "Yelah yelah. Nanti aku jumpa."

"So bila kau nak start nya? Jangan lambat sangat, Ryan dapat nanti baru tahu. Balik sini cepat, rindu kau do."

Farish tersenyum. "Bila tiba masa yang sesuai, aku baliklah."

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Mira menepuk meja dengan kuat. Geram pulak dia dengan Ryan. Tadi message ajak jumpa. Tapi bila dah jumpa, duduk termenung sorang sorang.

"Kau dah kenapa macam ni? Ada masalah dengan Ariana ke?" soalnya. Memang dulu dia suka Ryan, tapi sekarang dia rasa biasa biasa je. Sekarang ni dia anggap Ryan macam kawan baik dia.

Sebenarnya dia pernah confess dekat Ryan dulu, tapi Ryan tolak. Tu pun dia rasa bersalah sebab tolak Mira. Mira pun reda je, yang peliknya dia tak kisah sangat bila kena reject. Maybe dia dah tahu yang possibilities untuk Ryan suka dia tu sikit.

"Salah ke aku suka dia?" Ryan memandang Mira. Dia membuat muka 'duh'. "Obviously tak. Hak kau lah nak suka dia ke apa. Perasaan kau sendiri. Takkan orang nak halang kau kot. Melainkan kalau Ariana tu long lost sister kau..."

"Okay, tu tak kelakar. Ingat ni sinetron tv3 ke apa nak berdrama." Ryan mengeluh. "Maybe aku tak salah. Tapi kenapa aku still rasa bersalah? Aku rasa macam rampas kebahagiaan diorang."

"You know what, Ryan? You're too nice. Man up lah sikit. Protect what you love. Penat dah aku tengok kau macam ni. Kau jadi baik pun, tak dapat apa apa."

Ryan menggeleng kepala sambil tersenyum. Seketika dia terdiam, seperti sudah mengubah fikirannya. "If I protect what I love, then that would be selfish of me. I'd rather make her happy than being selfish like that. And in order to make her happy.... I have to let her go."

Mira mengeluh perlahan. Dia tahu dia takkan dapat mengubah pendirian Ryan. Bila dia dah buat keputusan, dia takkan berubah.

"There you go being all nice and sappy again."

Tiba tiba bunyi derapan tapak kasut semakin mendekati mereka. Bulat mata Ryan apabila ternampak Ariana di belakang Mira. "Ariana?"

Ariana menghembus nafas lega sebaik sahaja nampak Ryan. "Boleh kita cakap sekejap?"

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"Macam mana awak tahu saya dekat sini?"

Ariana memandang Mira sekilas. Mira tersenyum ke arahnya. "What, Mira ke?" soal Ryan yang perasan pandangan Ariana.

Dia mengangguk. "Haah, Mira. Ryan, saya tahu saya salah. Saya tak patut marah awak. I shouldn't have done that to you. Especially to you. You're way too nice, I don't deserve you. You deserv---"

"Why does everyone keep saying that? I'm not nice. I stole your happiness. I made you miserable. I made you lost the guy you loved. I'm the bad guy here. So stop saying that, I feel guilty."

Ariana menggeleng kepala dengan laju. "No, because you really are nice. You didn't make me miserable. I made myself miserable. It's my choice, right? So please don't blame yourself. And you're not the bad guy, I'm the bad guy here. Despite what you've gone through, I still made you upset. I always mess up and I didn't know—"

"Ariana. Stop it."

"No, saya rasa bersalah sebab selama ni saya tak pernah appreciate awak—"

"Ariana, let's just drop it okay? Let's not blame ourselves, is that fair yet?" Ryan memberi cadangan. Dia mengangguk setuju.

"Sebenarnya, saya ada benda nak bagitahu awak. Saya nak cancelkan plan parents kita. Saya nak awak happy, you know, you can finally be with the guy you love."

Ariana terpana. "Wait, what? Awak –"

"Nope, jangan kata apa apa. You almost made me change my mind just now, tahu tak. Just stick to my plan, alright? This is all for your own good."

A.N – yay almost done with this story!! A few chapters left rasanya