Shawn ~
The engine roared as I turned my key into the ignition. I pulled out of the spot and drove off. My hands were clammy as they awkwardly gripped the steering wheel.
Why am I doing this? Why do I continue this sick game with her? It's the fourth time this month. I've cheated three times before and now it's my fourth. I don't know why, but Ashley just gives my thrills. She relieves me of my stress and worries. I don't even know anything about her, besides her name and that she's good in bed...
Of course I love Camila, but she just isn't the same when it comes to... You know. Oh god, she just lost her virginity to a liar and a cheater. Why do I do this to myself? I always go and mess things up. This is ridiculous and I keep messing things up. I messed things up and she forgave me the first time, how am I supposed to fix this? This is truly becoming a dilemma for me. Camila will somehow find out and then everything will be ruined. Last time I was heartbroken, this time there won't even be a heart to spare.
Even though all of these thoughts race through my mind, I'm still driving to Ashley's place.
What kills me the most is that I'm not changing my decision.
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FanfictionAfter finding out that her boyfriend, Shawn Mendes, has been cheating on her while she's been out on tour, Camila Cabello wants him out of her memory. On the other hand, Shawn wants to apologize for his stupid mistake, but can't seem to get Camila b...
