I need help, Miss Lovato

Chapter 20

Lyric

I woke up to see Marissa sitting on the chair in my room quietly looking at her phone

'Mar?' I said quietly sitting up and rubbing my eyes, she looked up from her phone and walked over to my bed

'hey baby, sleep well?' she sat on the bed next to me and moved some hair from my forehead, I nodded and smiled at her 

'where's momma? and how long were you sitting there?' Marissa shifted uncomfortably before responding

'she's with Wilmer, and about two hours' my eyes widened because Marissa had been watching me sleep for two hours and that's kind of creepy

'why? Why have you been watching me for two hours?' I asked leaning my head on her shoulder 

'because your mom sent me in here and we never disobey Sargent Demetria, or bad things will happen' we both giggled and Marissa pulled me onto her lap starting to tickle my sides 

'no stop' I giggled squirming to get out of her grip 

'never' she cackled evilly, continuing to tickle me 

'mar p-please stop' I was now laughing loudly 

'mercy please' I squealed, she stopped tickling me and giggled

'only for you baby, you're lucky' I took my head off of Mar's shoulder and I jumped off of her lap

'where you going beautiful?' Mar asked me standing up behind me

'to see momma' I responded grabbing her hand and dragging her out of my room. We went down the hall until we reached momma's bedroom. I pushed Marissa towards the door 

'you go in first' I said practically forcing her hand to the door handle 

'okay, slow down kiddo' she laughed and started to open the door painfully slow

'just hurry up dammit' she giggled at my frustration and opened the door to reveal Mom and Wilmer cuddled up watching television

'hey babygirl' Momma said opening her arms for me, I ran forward and jumped into them smiling up at mom, she smiled back at me and kissed my forehead

'did you sleep well babygirl?' I nodded and wrapped my arms around her 

'you feeling better?' she whispered in my ear, again I nodded

'I'm sorry for scaring you momma' I whispered back, she rubbed her hand up and down my back 

'it's okay baby, I'm glad your feeling better, I love you' 

'I love you more momma bear' mom giggled and ruffled my hair causing me to pout because she messed up my hair

'you look so cute baby' mom gushed ruffling my hair even more 

'momma stop' I giggled smacking her hands away

she started laughing and kissed my forehead, then suddenly she stopped laughing and she just looked at me whilst smiling, it was super confusing. Marissa sat on the end of the bed and watched us smiling too

'why are y'all being creepy?' I asked looking at all of them

'just being in the moment, appreciating what I have' Momma replied while a tear rolled down her cheek

'happy tears' she laughed wiping it away, causing all of us to laugh with her.

'momma?' I said looking up at her

'yeah baby?' she asked brushing some hair out of my face

'thank you for saving me, and showing me what a family is, I love you' I said, hugging her tighter as a tear rolled down my cheek

'don't cry babygirl, I'm so glad you came into my life, and I'm so glad that you are apart of our little family, I love you more than you'll ever know'  she said back wiping my tears, and kissing my forehead again

'let's get out of bed, and do your homework little miss, we have school tomorrow' Momma said standing up with me still in her arms

'I can walk momma' I said trying to get out of her arms

'I know baby, but you are just so little so it's cute' she smiled

'Mar you coming?' I asked holding my hand out for her, she nodded and grabbed my hand.

We walked into the dining area and Momma disappeared into the kitchen, Mar sat down with me and grabbed my backpack for me, getting out my books

'Mar I don't wanna do it, it doesn't matter anyway' I groaned 

'Yes it does baby,' Mom shouted from the kitchen

'you heard sergeant Demetria, your work matters and you have to do it sweetheart' Marissa said grabbing my geometry book

'hey! I'm not mean and scary' Mom yelled again, causing Marissa to laugh

'It's okay momma, I don't think you are scary or mean' I shouted, mom walked into the room with three plates with sandwiches on them, she placed one in front of me and kissed my temple

'thank you baby' she passed Marissa her plate and sat next to me

'eat up beautiful, you'll need it to focus' mom said holding my hand rubbing circles on the back of it with her thumb

'I-I'm n-' I cut myself off and looked down

'you are though baby, your mind is telling you lies' mom continued to rub my hand with her thumb, I sighed and picked up the sandwich in my other hand, mentally preparing myself for the screaming match that is about to happen in my mind.

I took a bite and instantly felt full, I didn't want to eat anymore, but I knew mom would make me  anyways, so I didn't say anything. My demons were screaming as I raised the sandwich back up to my mouth, even though we weren't in public my hands were shaking and I felt like everyone could see me eating and gaining weight. I took another bite and dropped the sandwich on the plate, I moved my hand from moms grip and put my head in my hands, tears falling down my cheeks. Mom noticed and rubbed my back

'come on baby, I believe in you, you can do this' mom said lifting my chin and looking into my eyes

'I believe in you' she repeated, I looked down at my hands and grabbed the sandwich again. I looked up at mom and she nodded.

After I finished the entire sandwich I wanted to cry, mom held me on her lap probably afraid that I'd run off and stick my fingers down my throat

'I am so proud of you baby, so proud' she said squeezing my hand that she held in hers

'now let's get this homework done' she said putting my work in front of us