I need help, Miss Lovato

Chapter 18

I woke up on top of Marissa who was on her phone doing god knows what 'Mar? what are you doing?' I asked in my raspy morning voice 

'aww oh my god I got that on video' Marissa gushed 

'I'm snap-chatting because you are just too adorable' she said wrapping her arms back around me, I wriggled out of them and got off of her 

'baby come back, what's wrong?' I shook my head and sat up 

'baby? what's up?' Marissa said sitting up and pulling me closer to her, a tear ran down my cheek 

'what's wrong babygirl? Tell me and I'll fix it' I shook my head 

'you can't fix it, only I can' I whispered 

'then why don't you?' she asked softly 

'because momma won't let me' Marissa wrapped her arms around me and pulled me onto her lap, much to my protests 

'baby, I wish you could see what I see, you are way too skinny, and if you starve yourself again you'll just get sicker and baby I don't know whether I could see you that sick, I know that Dem wouldn't be able to' I shrugged and picked at my fingernails 

'baby, please don't do this to yourself, it kills me to see you so sick' I turned around on her lap and wrapped my arms around her neck. 

After hugging Marissa for fifteen minutes I let go 

'can we go wake up momma?' I asked, Marissa nodded and picked me up, carrying me into Momma's room 

'go jump on her baby' Marissa said putting me down, I jumped onto the bed and on top of mom 

'Wilmer? babe I'm sleeping' she whined, I stood on a spare space in the bed and started to jump on it, mom opened her eyes 

'hey babygirl' she said the covers pulled up to her chin 

'shit Marissa could you pass me some clothes?' she asked

 'baby guess what? Dem got some last night' Marissa said to me, making momma turn bright red 

'very funny, traumatizing my eleven year old, now please hand me some clothes' Marissa giggled before handing mom some clothes and she quickly slipped them on 

'momma can we cuddle now?' I asked whilst sitting on the end of the bed 

'of course babygirl' she opened her arms for me and I crawled over to her

'what does Mar mean but you got some?' I asked softly, momma groaned

'Marissa do you want to explain to my eleven year old what getting some means?' Marissa shook her head violently

'you'll find out soon, wait Marissa?  when do girls usually you know?'

"around the age of twelve wh- oh' Mom jumped up and grabbed Marissa arm with one hand whilst her other arm wrapped around my waist and picked me up running downstairs.

'Marissa can you get some shit from my bathroom' Mom asked Marissa.

Marissa came back with some brightly colored things in her hands, she passed them to mom and sat down next to me where mom had sat me down 'Uh no Marissa you're helping' Mom said practically jumping up and down from excitement 

'ugh Dem do I have to, I mean she is your kid' Momma nodded and handed Marissa the brightly colored things 

'momma, I'm tired I just want to cuddle' she giggled at me

'after this baby I promise' I groaned and shoved myself back into the couch

'okay babygirl, you are getting older now and you're body is going to- Marissa shut the fuck up I'm trying to educate here' Marissa was laughing her ass off

'I'm sorry Dem but, you sound like a 40 year old woman' Mom rolled her eyes 

'you do it then' Marissa gave mom the things and took one of them off her

'you shove this up your vagina, and then i-' Mom smacked Marissa over the head, whilst I sat there watching them with my mouth agape

'you are traumatizing her oh my god, baby it's not that bad, you're just going to bleed down there for a week and you'll need these, but we'll start you with pads when you need it, so baby, when you see blood in your underwear I want you to come to me and we'll sort it out' I nodded still confused by it all.

'so am I going to die? from all the blood?' they both giggled a little and I frowned

'no baby, you won't die, but it'll hurt a bit' I frowned harder

'it'll hurt like it does after you eat' mom said sitting next to me and putting me on her lap 

'do you get it?' I asked mom, she nodded and groaned 

'and so does Marissa baby, it's perfectly normal, but I am going to need you to come to me when it happens okay?' I nodded and wrapped my arms around her tightly 

'you okay baby?' I nodded and hugged her tighter

'I just want to cuddle' she giggled and kissed my forehead 

'I love your cuddles but you are squeezing the life out of me baby' I pulled back and frowned 

'I'm sorry momma, I didn't mean to, I just wanted to hug you and I hurt you, I'm rea-' mom put her finger to my lips and kissed my forehead again

'baby, it's okay, you didn't even hurt me, and I love your cuddles' I smiled and kissed her cheek

'Dem, Lyric has something to tell you' I looked at Marissa confused

'last night, she uh told me something that you seriously need to know' Marissa said on the verge of tears, I was practically begging her with my eyes not to tell Demi 

'she's suicidal, Dem, she wants to kill herself' Marissa let the sob out and her tears started to fall down her cheeks, mom also started to sob

'baby?' I nodded and clung to momma

'help me mommy, please mommy help me' I sobbed into her chest

'I will baby, I promise you I will' she said wrapping her arms tightly back around me and kissing my forhead.