Poems

Poem 10

  "I was eager to feel something I've never felt before"

So that's why you chose to act like a whore?

You had a boyfriend, so did I

But you broke 2 hearts in the blink of an eye

Was it worth it, losing such a close friend?

I never wanted us to come to an end

I was broken down and you left me in the dirt

Kissed my ex boyfriend that same night, while I was crying to you hurt

How could you do that? I thought you cared

But when he left me, you stopped being there

Were you there because of him? Or there because of me?

This is something I fail to see

"I love you Sam," you said so many times

But if you really did, I wouldn't be writing these rhymes

He left me because I'm flawed

But when you cut he does nothing at all

How does that make sense? How is that fair?

When I did it, he didn't want to be there

But when you do it, all hell breaks loose

Shit, might as well give me the fucking noose

Would you have even cared if I ended it that night?

Or would that have made everything in your world alright?

It's been 6 months but man does it hurt

Because a girl who didn't deserve it got left in the dirt

I have someone better, his name is Zach

He holds me when I have my panic attacks

I have a new best friend, her name is Emily

And she is the best thing to happen to me

Together and with a few other friends

I smile and laugh to absolutely no end

What was our bond? Over a band?

It seems that's all it was because when we were both falling, you took his hand

You let me drop into the icy waters below

You didn't even try to help, you just let me go

I miss you, but no, never again

I can't bring myself to call you my friend

I can't show you the people who help me today

Because I'm too scared that you'll steal them away

Now I admit, I'm not better, I tried to steal a guy too

But when he had to make the choice, he choice the girl with the love so true

And I'm okay with that, he's back in my life

And no longer am I suffering through pain and strife

I still have days when the demons return

And sometimes I look back at old times and I still yearn

But the past is the past, I don't want to go back again

I still have pictures from way back when

But if I had the chance, I'd stay where I am

Because I have the love of my fam

I don't want to relive or change the past

Either way it wouldn't really last

I'm sorry you're gone, I'm sorry I'm still hurting

But we can't be friends knowing you played me dirty

Best friends forever?

No, that we were never

Still be friends now?

If we could, I don't see how

Best friends back then?

Oh hell yeah, until it came to a shitty end

I wrote this because I'm still not over it, not over you

God damn do I miss the things we used to do

But I'm different now, times have changed

The me you knew then isn't the same

I don't know what else to say

I just hope that one day

You look back and see what you lost when you broke my heart

And you slowly start to fall apart

Because that's something that you can't fix

Let's just hope you don't fall for one of his tricks