Poems

Poem 44

I'm not doing this for you, I'm doing it for me

Because maybe if I say this then my demons will let me be

This poem's dedicated to a lot of people, good and bad

But this is mainly for the one who took away everything I ever had

This poem's gonna be long, I'm going way back to the start

And not stopping until I get to my most recently broken heart

It's a little bit of everything, forgiveness and a vent

I'm gonna talk about it all, from the biggest cut to the smallest dent

Actually, let me not, because a wise girl once told me that the past shouldn't have to matter

Even if it did leave you a little mentally shattered

I'll make this short, sweet and simple so I don't have to shout

But I feel like this is my last chance to get it all out

A lot of people hurt me in a variety of different ways

But I'm trying to move on to better days

So to those who hurt me many years ago

When people asked who I wanted to be and I didn't know

To the ones who laughed when I showed my flaws

And lied when they said they'd be there through it all

You're forgiven for what you caused, the pain and sorrow

I'm pleased to say you won't be on my mind tomorrow

To those freshman boyfriends who wanted something that they couldn't have

To quote the great Will Smith, "I ain't even mad"

To those friends who have since come and gone

I no longer care that you did me wrong

To the one who got stolen away by my very best friend

I'm not sorry our friendship met its end

To that one guy a year ago, the one who had plenty of others while he was with me

I won't let you make me think every guy is untrustworthy

But most importantly of all

This goes out to the guy who made me take my hardest fall

To the one whose heart gave me a place to call home

The one who reassured me I was never alone

To the one who falsified who he was to teach me a lesson

I've graduated, it's the end of my session

I'm going to be fine, I have people who show me they care without giving me pain

I have a relationship that shows me what my future has yet to gain

To all of the above, thanks for the laughs and the smiles

I know some of you have been out of my life for a while

But to what you did, I held on tight

It made me scared of things that actually went right

But times change, people grow up, now is my time

So one last time, I dedicate to you all this rhyme

Thanks for every laugh and tear

Thanks for that one good year

But the people I have now will last a lot longer

The girl I'm becoming is better, she's stronger

She's ready to say goodbye

To the hurt and to the lies

Once upon a time, she didn't want to feel

Fast forward to present day and she's finally happy, she's finally healed