Poems

Poem 31

  ~Everything I Didn't Say~

You never let me explain, so I stand here today

To tell you everything I didn't say that fateful Friday

You made a choice, it hit deep in the heart

But I never wanted us to fall apart

I admit, I did tell a lie

But you never bothered to ask me why....

I honestly can't tell you the reason I chose to do so

I never expected it to force you to go

I was hurt, he saw it no matter how hard I tried

I wanted to crawl in a small space and hide

I felt like you were choosing to be without me

I couldn't accept it, it couldn't be

You were choosing a week where we couldn't talk at all

This made me take a pretty hard fall

I hid it for a week, I was going so strong

But I couldn't hide it all that long

For just a moment today, I wanted to message you

And then I remembered that's something I'm no longer allowed to do

It finally happened, I finally realized what we had done

To blame, you were not the only one

I think the reason I let him do that was for once, I wanted you to be hurt

For once, I wanted you to be the one with your heart in the dirt

But I didn't expect you to snap and leave me here in so much pain

Why did this happen? Did our friendship really have to die in such vain?

I'm not expecting this to bring you back to me, I just need you to understand

You really hurt me that day and Michael was just there to lend a hand

I will tell you this, I miss you and I hope one day we can talk again

I hope we can start over just as friends

Sitting here today and thinking about you makes me cry

I apologize for such a stupid lie

The ball's in your court, you can choose to come back or stay away

But this is everything I didn't say that fateful Friday