Poems

Poem 40

As I play this song I refuse to break

Because I found a part of me you didn't take

I dance to the soft melodies and sing the lyrics to no one at all

And smile as the words lightly fall

From the lips that used to dream of kissing you

Before I learned everything you chose to do

I look at it as a new foundation for who I will become

Because the girl you used to love is completely done

She'll never show her face here again

She won't sit by and let people pretend

To love her the way you once claimed to love that girl

Before you broke her heart and shattered her world

I'll dance to this song every day for the rest of my life

While I wait for my time to play the wife

You lost someone who gave you everything, I lost one who 

didn't care

One who broke his promise to always be there

I will admit, this has hit me harder than I wanted

But while my heart was breaking you sat and taunted

Who I am, my friends, the people who were by your side

But I guess you weren't meant to be part of this forever ride

I loved a stranger, you loved the best

And you'll look for me in all the rest

But I won't be found because you chose to not love me

When you decided to fake who you wanted be

But now I know why there's no book on our lives where we can read to the end

Because sometimes we lose those very good friends

We're in a good place with people we love

But if we read that we lost them when push came to shove

It would crush us internally "I did that? She did that? Why?"

We'd sit on our beds with our fairytales and cry

And sure we'd get to the happy ending in the book

But take a second look

That's the future, the present path paved with pain

Moments where you'll feel there's nothing to gain

The pain of backstabbings and heart breaks will be clear

You'll come to points where the end seems near

But this book expects you to face it all and come out strong

For the future you were destined for all along

I'm getting side tracked, so let me just say

I may not be over you today

I may not get there next week or even a month from now

But I know that some how

I will get better with the aid of time

And you'll no longer be the inspiration for these rhymes

I'm not okay right now and that's alright

But I'll just keep putting up a fight

And one day I'll smile and forget your name

Forget your face, forget the pain

My husband will hug me and kiss my forehead

Every memory of you having disappeared, dead

We'll watch TV with our kids and laugh at the show

And I'll be thankful for the day you chose to let go

Because it let me be happy, even if we didn't make it

I'll be grateful that you took my heart and chose to break it

It brought me something better, a lot better what we had

Then the pain you put me through won't seem all that bad