I'll put this in the order in which you told me
Hopefully after this, you will finally see
We've done this so many times, I've become numb
It didn't really hurt to admit we were done
But before you jump to conclusions like you so commonly do
I want you to know that I miss you too
I'd never admit it because I thought you didn't care
I thought that if I came back to you, you'd dismiss me right then and there
A monster? That I can't really get
Maybe that's just a side of me I haven't acknowledged yet
I'm glad you still talk to what's left that great thing we had
And I'm truly sorry things ended so bad
Your love and affection was always worth while
I loved all the stupid things you did to make me smile
Maybe that part was said out of hate
But once it's open, you can't really close that gate
We both tried our best to be the perfect friend
But sometimes things just have to come to an end
I never saw our friendship as a game
But when it came to the fights, it seemed like you thought I was the only one to blame
Honestly Em? How dare you accuse me of using you for status?
I loved you for your personality and everything we had? God dammit Emily I was glad we had it!
I never asked you to take the blame for me
In fact I more often than not took the blame before you, you see?
I wasn't trying to make your life a living hell
But let's face it, our friendship was Heaven, and we both fell
Let me explain why I said the part about game and war
I read in your convo with Bre, in which you said we hadn't been friends in a while, that part made my heart sore
I guess in my head it made me think you had faked everything I loved
It felt like a push, so in response, I didn't think, I just shoved.
I understand why if we tried again now, things wouldn't work
But I'd be lying if I said that it doesn't hurt
"Because I could" is not the reason I tore you apart
I did that because I felt like you broke my heart
Please don't accuse me of being the type to not care
Because you know damn well that when you needed me I was always there
Let's face the facts, I wasn't the only dishonest one
But I won't bring that up, it's all said and done
Time to answer the big question, exactly happened that day
I realized something Em, we were stuck on replay
Fighting every so often, ending it over one thing or another
Causing stress for our sisters and brothers
Honestly, Em, it did feel like you were a parasite
You were always sad and your depression, I always had to fight
It took time, it took power
Any strength I had draining by the hour
Emily, you used to be worth my world and more
But we both walked out through different doors
I never saw you like the other girls, I swear on my life
But you and I bickered like husband and wife
I'm not going to beg or ask you to stay
That's your choice and I would understand if you chose to walk away
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