Poems

Poem 46

~Just A Poetic Vent~

Give me a minute to clear my head

Because I cannot believe what I just read

I need you to listen, to hear me out

Let's not even say "benefit of the doubt"

Stop insinuating, stop accusing him of cheating

Because of his actions, he's already taken quite the beating

Don't tell me I'm brainwashed or that soon I'll see

That he's repeating what he did to me

I don't care if he doesn't have your trust, he has mine

That's all that matters, so quit wasting our time

It doesn't matter to him if he's earned your trust

And I really don't see why you're making a fuss

You have the chance to leave if that suits you better

Than accepting the fact that we are together

I understand he did us wrong, I get he is a liar

But so many people are giving me shit and I am growing tired

So listen here to what I have to say

And understand that how I feel today

Yes, I understand he has a past

I know last time it didn't last

Yes I know he broke my heart

Took my trust and ripped it apart

Yes, I'm aware of his many flaws

And his betrayal hurt us all

Yes, I'm aware of how badly he hurt me

But there's something you all fail to see

I know I can't say much because of the distance between he and I

But I can't emphasize enough: He had no reason to lie

His goal last time was to make me rebuild myself

To rearrange my priorities and get some help

But when he said what he said roughly two months ago

There was no reason, you know?

I was doing fine without him, he saw that too.

But what did he choose to do?

He told me he still felt it, he wanted he could make it right

And honestly? I'll never forget that night

Now don't expect me to romanticize

The man I once called a devil in disguise

He's human, bound to make mistakes

But you know what he said? He'll do whatever it takes

To fix what he did. Why are you so quick to assume his words are another game?

For what he did, he feels endless shame.

I'm a forgiving person and to me, actions mean a lot.

I didn't forgive him on the spot;

I needed time, time he was willing to spend

On me because he didn't want our story to end.

He's proving himself; he really is different now

But you're stuck in the past and you refuse to see how,

How he's changed, the differences are extreme

I'm not afraid that his intentions are mean

From the small things he does to prove himself, to the bigger ways

The man he is now is not the boy from the bad days

So stop belittling me for my choices; stop criticizing a man you no longer know

Accept the fact that we've chosen each other again, or find the door and go

I'm tired of people judging us, it feels like us against the world

But no matter what you say, I'm still going to be his girl

So leave, if you can't stand the fact that he's the one I chose

Because if I've learned one thing recently, it's your kind comes and goes.

I'm not going to sit here miserable and cry.

If you leave? I'm simply going to wave goodbye.

I'm tired of begging people to stay; tired of fighting to make them see

The way this beautiful world looks to me.

If you can't see my point of view,

My darling, there's the door, I bid you adieu.