Poems

Poem 30

~Dedicated to that one guy whose favorite past time was breaking my heart. You know who you are.~

Push, pull, tug, shove

I thought this was what you call love

Slap, whack, break, ow

Can the pain be over now?

"I don't love you" "I don't care"

You promised me you'd always be there

"Don't talk to me again at all"

Those words led me to this fall

"You can do this" "You don't need him Sam"

But in you I found part of who I am

I'd giggle, we'd laugh, we'd plan, we'd flirt

But in the end you threw my heart in the dirt

"I'm sorry Sam" you fucking lied

Because of you I fucking cried

Forgave you when you didn't deserve it

But what'd you do? Treat me like shit!!

"I care Sam, I really do."

You can't bullshit me the way you used to

"I never meant to make you feel this way"

You fucking hurt me every day

"Sam, I'm sorry"

Fuck you, you're history

I hope one day we walk down the same street

And I hope for a moment our eyes can meet

So you can see just how happy I can be in the absence of you

And I hope you think "God, what did I do?"

I hope when you see my smile, you see your mistakes

And I hope just for a moment, your heart breaks

I hope your heart feels heavy when I walk past without saying hi

I hope inside, you begin to cry

It'll give you a glimpse of the pain I felt because of you

But most of all, I hope you regret the things you chose to do

I hope you turn back and look at me once more

And I hope you realize you shouldn't have closed that door

You made the mistakes, and I refused to take blame

Now I hope you feel ashamed

Because to you, power was more important than me

This is something I finally see

But that's not my fault, you're just a dick

And honestly, the way I used to let you walk on me makes me sick

What kind of man likes to hurt someone he claims to care about?

That's not a man, of that I have no doubt

I'm not going to waste my whole day insulting you and wishing you sadness and pain

But I want you to know that if I do see you again,

My posture will grow confident, my eyes will shine bright

Because even though you fucked me over, I know I'll be alright

Our story ended, I'm on to my next chapter

Because I've accepted with you, there is no happily ever after

Thanks for the laughs, the smiles, the "care"

But I can happily say I don't need you there

I hope you find a girl who loves you like I did and I hope you love her too

Meanwhile, I'll find more and more ways to forget you

Then one day I'll find a guy to treat me right

A guy who sees that I'm worth a fight

I'll tell him our story and he'll say it's your loss, not mine

And then I'll realize that without you, I'm doing just fine