Poems

Poem 26

  ~My Mistake~

I did it again, I made a mistake

I knew if I gave you my heart, it would just break

Then why did I give it? I can't really say

I can tell you one thing, though. I'm going to cry today.

All the flirting, every fucking word you said

Every night it replays inside my head

Did you know that you can hear when a heart shatters?

That moment of pain when nothing else matters

When she hears the words that crush her world

When she finally realizes she wasn't "that girl"

You can't even imagine that pain

When you feel like everything you've done has been in vain

When the first guy you could really trust since that one guy is finally given your heart

And he chooses to accept it, just to rip it all apart

The sound that heart makes, is deafening

But the pain, damn, that part's never ending

This is it, all of my walls are up

I mean it when I say I've fucking had enough

I let you in, now I'm fucking hurt to hell

So of my emotions, I will never again tell

Have a crush? Maybe, but you'll never know

From now on, I'm just going to let go

You want me to open up to you? Too bad

I'm an introvert now and I'm kinda glad

Nobody can hurt me or let me down

Nobody can tell that underneath this smile is the biggest frown

Nobody can break me, inside or out

Nobody can shatter me, of that I have no doubt

All I have to do is put on my smile

Wear it proud and walk around for a while

Nobody I love can hurt me again

Not a crush, a sister, not even a friend