Fantasy Becomes Reality

Chapter 91

I woke up and Andy was sitting on the edge of the bed and he was holding his head.

"Hey." I said and he groaned.

"Jasmine." He groaned and I sat up and sat next to him.

"Your head?" I asked and he nodded. 

"I feel like shit." He said.

"You only drank a whole bottle of vodka." I said and he looked over at me. He looked so tired and drained.

"I'm sorry." He said.

"Don't." I said and he narrowed his eyes at me.

"I'm telling you I'm sorry because I don't want you to fucking hate me because all I've been doing is drinking and I'm sorry I'm putting that on you." He said.

"I didn't mean it like that. Just stop apologizing and getting mad at me when I didn't do anything." I said and he got up and went over to Skylar and picked her up.

"Can you feed her?" I asked.

"Yeah sure Jasmine." He said annoyed and walked out the room.

"Andy I did nothing to you why are you mad at me?" I yelled and I heard him stop against the wooden floors in the hall and he turned back around. He walked back in the bedroom and put Skylar back down in her crib and went over to me and and climbed on top of me.

"What are you doing?" I asked and he started kissing me.

"I'm not mad at you. I'm mad at myself." He said into the kiss and I wrapped my arms around the back of his neck as he kissed me. He ran his hands under my shirt and I looked over at Skylars crib and pulled away from him.

"Stop." I said and he pulled away from me.

"What?" He asked and I looked at Skylar and he looked over at her and bowed his head as he nodded. He let go of me and got up and I grabbed his hand.

"Hey." I said and he looked down at me.

"I'll feed her." I said and he shook his head.

"No it's fine I will." He said and I got up and he went over to her and picked her up.

"Jasmine I got her." He said and I nodded. He cupped my cheek and lightly brushed his thumb across it.

"I love you baby girl." He said and kissed my forehead.

"I love you too." I said and he smiled weakly and his hand slowly left my face. Skylar looked up at the both of us.

"Are you hungry baby?" Andy asked looking down at her and she nodded. He kissed the top of her head and grabbed my hand before we walked downstairs. He went into the kitchen and put her in her high chair and went in the fridge and grabbed a jar of baby food. I sat at the kitchen counter as he squatted down and started feeding her and I smiled at him.

"What?" He smirked.

"I just love you." I said and he looked at Skylar and she spit out all her food. He sighed and wiped it off her lip and chin and got another spoon full of it.

"Ready sky?" He asked and she shook her head.

"Come on open wide." He said and she made a funny face and he chuckled.

"Here comes the airplane." He said pretending the spoon was moving through the air and she opened her mouth and we both laughed.

She finished eating and Andy grabbed Tylenol out of the cabinet and took two and went over to me. He smiled weakly at me and he looked upset.

"What's wrong?" I asked and he shook his head.

"Nothing." He said and I tilted my head to the side and narrowed my eyes at him.

"Andy y-"

"I don't know what's wrong." He said.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"I don't know what's wrong. I don't know why. I'm just not okay." He said and I grabbed his hand.

"I'm just stressed out and I'm trying my best I don't know how to explain it." He said and I  got up and hugged him as tight as I could and he held me.

"I don't know what to do, because I'm scared if I keep doing this I'll lose you, I can't lose you." He said.

"You aren't going to lose me." I said and he entangled his fingers in my hair and kissed my cheek.

"If I keep doing this I will, and I don't know how to stop myself I just do it without thinking." He said and I shook my head.

"Andrew-" I paused and pulled away from him.

"You're my husband and when I married you I promised you I would be here for you high or low. I'm staying, I'm here, I'm not leaving. I'm going to help you through this." I said and he smiled weakly.

"Do you remember what happened last night?" I asked and he nodded.

"And you told me that you wouldnt give us up-" I paused and looked at Skylar and he nodded.

"As long as you don't give us up, I won't give up on you." I said and he kissed me. He pulled my waist into his and cupped my cheek as he kissed me and we didn't even care about Skylar being right there watching us at this point. He needed it and so did I. No matter if we had sex or not it wasn't anything compared to him kissing me and me kissing him. Sex wasn't going to fix him or me or us  but when he kissed me I could feel everything and it meant so much more than sex. He held my hips as he kissed me and he slipped his tongue inside my mouth and I let out a soft moan. He continued to kiss me and hold me and when we pulled away from each other he looked at me and I looked at him and his eyes were sparkling blue.

"I love you." He said.

"I love you too." I said putting my hand on his chest and rubbing it softly before I went and picked up Skylar. She had the binky Andy gave her in her mouth and it fell on the ground and Andy picked it up and washed it off before giving it back to her.

"You okay?" I asked and he shrugged.

"Better than I was."