Fantasy Becomes Reality

Chapter 114

I woke up to Skylar climbing on me and I chuckled and saw Andy sitting on the edge of my bed.

"She missed you." He said and I kissed her and looked up at him.

"She's not the only one." I said and he shook his head.

"Nope." He said popping the p and Skylar hugged me.

"Mommy." She said.

"Yeah?" I asked.

"Daddy is scared." She said and he looked at her and I looked at him.

"Sky." Andy said and I shook my head.

"It's okay." I said and he nodded. I hated this. We were acting like strangers but it was my fault.  He picked sky up and put her down off the bed.

"I am scared." He said and I nodded.

"Me too." I said and he sighed.

"What have you been doing?" I asked.

"Literally nothing." He said and I nodded.

"At least we're in the same boat with that." I said and he just looked at me and I realized what I said.

"I didn't mean it like that." I said and he nodded.

"You really don't have to explain." He chuckled awkwardly and put his hand on my thigh. He got up to see where Skylar went and I got up to put on a bra. He came back into the room while I was shirtless and he wrapped his arms around me from behind and put his hands on my belly. He rested his head on my shoulder and I leaned against him more.

"You are showing more." He said and I closed my eyes as he held me.

"I'm exhausted Andy." I said.

"I know." He said and I just stood there with him. We weren't even mad at each other it was just him waiting for me to be okay. He was fine and I knew if I started kissing him he would kiss back and I knew if I told him I loved him he would say it back. He had all his feelings and I could barely say anything to him.

"Was I a mistake?" He asked and I felt tears going down my face and I shook my head and bit my lip.

"No." I sniffled and he turned me around and wrapped his arms around me and I wrapped my arms around him.

"You weren't a mistake, you aren't a mistake. I just need time to think." I said muffled into his chest and he pulled away from me some to wipe my tears.

"You were far from a mistake." I chuckled and sniffled and he kissed my forehead. I got myself together and pulled away from him and pulled my shirt on over my head and he grabbed my hand. I looked up at him and he had tears in his eyes.

"Please just tell me this isn't the end of us." He said barely above a whisper.

"Andrew." I said and he shook his head.

"Please." He said and started crying and let go of me and turned around. He paced as he ran his fingers through his hair and I felt horrible.

"Jasmine I love you baby. Please just tell me if this is the end of us because I can't do this. I need something. I need you. I want you. I want you and only you. But if you don't want me that's okay. I just want you to be happy and I need an answer." He said.

"I don't know." I said and he raised an eyebrow at me.

"I don't know, I just need time." I said and he sat down on my bed and buried his face into his hands. I sat down next to him and rubbed his back and he looked up at me.

"What did I do wrong?" He asked.

"You didn't do anything. I don't know why I'm feeling like this. Please just give me time. Give us time." I said and he wrapped his arm around me and pulled me down on the bed. He rested his head on my chest and he was crying softly and I ran my fingers through his hair. I broke his heart and it was killing me and I wanted him to be okay. I wanted us to be okay. But I wasn't going to lie to him. We weren't completely over. He was my husband and I was his wife and I wasn't going to let everything go after this. I just needed to get through this and needed some time to just think and try and figure out what went wrong so I could fix it. It wasn't him, he cared about me with everything in him and I was mad at myself for fucking doing this to him. I heard my dad coming up the stairs and he was talking to Skylar and I looked up at him and shook my head when he walked in the doorway smiling as he held her. He saw us and his smile faded and he walked away. He wasn't sobbing he was just crying and I continued to run my fingers through his hair. He sat up more and wrapped his arm around me and rested his head on my shoulder and I continued to run my fingers through his hair.