Fantasy Becomes Reality

Chapter 129

I woke up in the hospital with my dad next to me and I looked over at him.

"Am I okay?" I mumbled and my dad smiled weakly and nodded.

"You're okay. Just stitches." He said.

"Where's Andy?" I asked.

"Andy?" He asked cocking an eyebrow at me and I sighed.

"He was here." I said and he nodded.

"We're those hickies from you?" He asked and I closed my eyes and I could have started crying again but I stopped myself. I just shook my head.

"You saw him?" I asked.

"I talked to him and he started crying." He said and I looked at him.

"He apologized to me. Doesn't mean I accepted it, but he was crying his eyes out to me." He said.

"Where is he?" I asked.

"He went to get his car. He rushed here with you." He said and I nodded.

"Dad I wasn't paying attention and I didn't know. I was crying. I'm so scared." I said.

"Shh, I know." He said.

"You're not thinking straight because you just got divorced today Jas. It's okay. It's going to get better. All I care about it that you just needed stitches and you didn't have a concussion." He said and I nodded.

"Dad I want to say that divorcing him was the right thing but I regret it." I said.

"You regret it now. You won't. Andy is an idiot. I'm sorry but he is. Even in the beginning I never like him but I tried for you." He said and I started crying and he grabbed my hand.

"It's going to be okay." He said and his phone started ringing and he grabbed it and I saw it was Andy and he answered it.

"Slow down, what's wrong?" He asked and I sat up.

"Okay, okay." He said and he handed me the phone.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Jasmine-" he paused and he was clearly crying and I closed my eyes.

"I fucked up. I really did. I fucked up so bad. I love you so much. I regret doing that to you. I just-" he paused and didn't say anything.

"No." I said.

"No. Andy no. This isn't something we can just apologize and get back together and make up. We're divorced. We're done. We have to get over each other. It's not going to be easy for me either but we have to. I can't. I can't go back to you. I'm tired. I'm so tired of it. I couldn't do it anymore and I won't." I said.

"You found someone else right? By the looks of it you did." I said.

"Be happy with her. No matter how bad you hurt me you still deserve to be happy." I said and I hung up before he could say anything and I handed my dad his phone.

"I'm so scared." I said looking at him and he nodded.

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I went home and Jen was watching Skylar and Riley which pissed me off but I honestly wasn't in the mood to fight. I was stressed out. I didn't know if divorcing my husband was a mistake or not, I didn't know what I was doing. I was scared, I was in pain, I was hurt mentally and physically. There's an end to everything but I was so in love with him I never thought this would be the end of us. Through everything that happened between us. Everything we went through within two years was nothing. We jumped right into everything so fast without even thinking. We had Skylar, we got married, it all just happened so fast and then it ended with this. It broke my heart. It killed me. And waking up at 3am with Riley screaming and not having him next to me was horrible. I wanted to call him, tell him to come over, talk, have him see sky and Riley, but I couldn't. I would just lead him on and then I'd go back to him and we'd have trust issues and it would be a complete mess and I didn't know what to do.

What I went through with Andy, from getting pregnant, to my mom passing, to losing the baby, him getting in the accident, something non stop happening between us-he was always there for me and I couldn't deny that. He loved me. He truly loved me and I did love him. I'm still loved him, but our love wasn't strong enough. We'd argue, we'd have sex, be okay for a day, and then argue again. We would non stop arguing and all we did right was make love. Even though he cheated on me. Even though he was the reason what happened to us happened, I would never talk bad about him. He was a good father, he was caring, loving, respectful. He would do anything for anyone and as much as I wanted to hate him I couldn't. I loved him so much. I thought he was the love of my life, I thought we'd be together forever but we couldn't. Even if we tried again we wouldn't work. My dad didn't see him the way I saw him, I didn't expect him to, but it bugged me everytime he would talk bad about him. He expected me to hate him but I didn't and never could but I couldn't stand up for Andy because my dad would think I was crazy. Divorcing him felt like the biggest mistake of my life but it was what was right. My fantasy became reality, but reality officially sank in.