Fantasy Becomes Reality

Chapter 94

I walked back into the house and Andy was sitting on the couch watching Tv and he glared at me as I walked past him.

"Are you going to talk to me or act like nothing just happened?" He asked sitting up more and grabbing my wrist tightly and I flung myself around at him.

"I have done nothing to you. I told you yesterday that I'm doing everything I can Andrew. I'm trying to help you and you're completely making me feel like a fucking idiot that shouldn't even be with you." I said.

"I can't believe you just acted like that infront of my dad." I said and he chuckled.

"Like I didn't hear you telling him everything that's been going on between us. About me drinking and how we both want another baby but your pretty much scared because I'm drinking? Seriously? Im not in the fucking mood for this I'm sick." He said.

"So I'm supposed to act like I'm happy with you?" I asked and he looked at me with soft eyes like he felt sorry.

"You're not happy with me?" He asked and I bit my lip to fight back tears.

"No, recently I haven't been." I said.

"Jasmine-no baby." He said getting up and grabbing my hand and I pulled away from him.

"Andy I don't want another baby with you if all you're going to do is drink." I said.

"We were fine, we made up last night and this morning we were fine, and I love those moments where we joke around and kiss and hug and when we're with Skylar and she's making us laugh and it reminds me of why I fell in love with you, and lately I need to be reminded why I fell in love with you because all you've been doing is drinking and making me feel like shit. You weren't like this when we started." I said.

"I'm not saying you have to stop completely. I still want to have fun with you and drink with you sometimes. I just don't want you drinking away every single problem in your life and trying to avoid reality." I said and he went to wrap his arms around me but I pushed him away.

"Andrew I gave up every single thing for you- for us! As soon as I graduated I planned on going to college and I stopped everything for you. Because I didn't want to leave you, because I love you. I don't want you to drink, at least not as much as you have been. I don't want us to be ruined because of that. I want another baby with you, but you can't even say you drinking is good for Skylar to watch, let alone another baby. I don't want you doing that infront of her. When it's us and if my dad is watching her fine, if you're home alone fine, but do not do that infront of her. Yesterday as soon as you came home you grabbed a bottle opened it and started drinking it infront of her. That's the last thing I want her to see and remember her childhood is her dad being a drunk." I said and he just looked at me.

"Jasmine-" he said and I shook my head.

"I've delt with it before and that's not happening to her." I said and I felt tears in my eyes and he wrapped his arms around me.

"I love you and Skylar with my entire heart and the last thing I want to do is hurt you. I don't want you to be unhappy. I don't want to make you feel like shit and I'm sorry that I've been doing that. I want another baby with you and I want to be a great dad and raise them both with you and hold you and kiss you and love you and I do not want us to be ruined. I'm sorry. I didn't even realize what I was doing. I know you gave up everything for us and I know you're trying everything you can and I'm sorry I haven't been there to help with Skylar." He said and I held him tighter.

"I love you." He said kissing the top of my head.

"I love you too. Please just stop being an asshole. I can't lose you." I said and he nodded.

"Come on let's go upstairs and lay down." He said and I looked up at him and chuckled as I sniffled and wiped tears away.

"What?" He asked.

"My dad told me we should try again tonight because we would need it." I said and he smiled weakly and kissed me.

"Not tonight, I just want to hold you." He said and I nodded. He grabbed my hand tightly and we went upstairs and laid down. Skylar was sound asleep and Andy wrapped his arms around me and held me tightly. He rubbed my back lightly as he held me and he kissed my neck. He pulled away from me and I looked up at him and ran my fingers through his hair.

"Skylar started crying when we started arguing." I said and he nodded and sighed.

"I know." He said.

"And it was like it was my fault because I was doing everything I could to get her to stop and as soon as you held her she stopped." I said and he shook his head.

"Stop, she loves you. That was my fault, I should have said anything." He said and I didn't say anything and turned on my side so my back was facing him. He wrapped his arm around me and kissed my cheek as he started rubbing my belly in circles.

"I'm not pregnant yet Andy." I chuckled and so did he.

"I know shut up." He joked and he pulled me into him more.

"Goodnight." I said.

"Night."