Forever and Always - BoyxBoy -Complete-

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A/N: Okay, I know all of you or most of you are seemed to be confused of the previous two chapters... It's about Daniel's thoughts, recalling his past.. More likely the event on how him and the other started out from friends to lovers, missing chapters of Just a Kiss... anyhow, please please, comment of what you think about this story... I do have ideas but I also need your feedbacks... and Thank you so much for those who have read this already!!! I love you guys! :))))

Kean

I couldn’t sleep at all. Even with Li snuggling closer to me, it wasn’t working. I struggle to keep my mind shut of all the ideas going in and out. The wind blew at me earlier startled something that I’m scared of it since then. I couldn’t just let it pass; simply ignoring it may seem to be such a joke or is it? Maybe if I figure it out I can swoop around it, solving it.

In front of me was Liam, still moving closer and closer to me, sleeping tranquil. His hair is still a mess with a few spots of glitter from the show earlier, glistening as the faint lights on the lamp posts across the streets passes through his translucent fabric curtain. They seem to be stars sparkling, but at a closer range for me to see. It made me think how come it all came into his head. Knowing his all immature attitude, he must have been playing with all their supposedly materials for the backdrop and a few for their costumes.

He slept peacefully, like a kid after having his bottle of milk. Well he is always like a baby, but my very baby that I could take care of. I kept on brushing his hair away from his forehead, tidying up the tangled bits with my fingers. Gosh this is just so, I don’t know… I just love it doing this from him.

But still, I can't even give him what he wanted, what I wanted. There is no other way of telling this but, making out with him makes me feel guilty. He's too valuable for me to lose after doing it. There is no total satisfaction or agreement each time we wanted to take a step further it’s too sickening, my stomach keeps on twisting and turning. Those affectionate touches our bodies make in contact, our hands knotted together, our lips tenderly wrestling each other, it's too much to handle.

Minutes later knowing that he’s already sleeping heavily, I slowly undo his arms entwined around my body and rested them on a pillow. I crawled over him and landed my foot on hardly on his slippers that slipped and made a creaking sound. Sighing at the sight of him asleep perfectly still, I pulled his sheets up covering his whole body from the cold air in his room.

I can hear his murmuring and groaning as his body moves around. It's like he's having a nightmare or something not quite disturbing or scary. I grabbed his robe hanging behind the door, gave him a deep kiss on his forehead and sneaked out of his room and closing the door, not letting out a sound.

Going down from his room to the kitchen was even more nerve-wrecking. Every step I take on the staircase squeaks, before I could make this one last step, I ran for it. And when I get to the living room, gosh, it was just too cold. Winter is really kicking in fast and it's more likely to arrive earlier that I thought it would be. It's a good thing I covered Li before I came down here and also I got his warm robe.

I sat down by the counter with my face on top of my crossed arms. I couldn't make myself dose off not until I found out what could that be. It's not irritating, but maybe needs of my concern. Maybe if I should text Daniel that could do it. Or maybe not, if only Jake would answer it then no. It's not like it's bad for me to text him, simply because he has a boyfriend. Jake is just too much possessive of Dan, I hope he realizes that.

So I took my phone which was sitting right beside Li's on the coffee table and made it.

Hey Dan, just wanted to say hi... and how are you? I haven't seen you after the show and I'm wondering what happened. Or maybe you can't tell me about it. Just, text me okay? Good night :)

And in seconds my message was flying up in the sky, making its own way to his phone. True, I haven't really seen him inside the theater after he left me behind and I just heard a small commotion at the back seats, which didn't disturb me at all. It was normal that there were always that stuff occurring during this events in school and I'm used to it already and also there are a lot of troublemakers in school so it's not an unusual thing. I simply hope Daniel is not involved on it, somehow.

"Pathetic..." The word came out from my mouth followed by a slight sarcastic chuckle. Why am I even bothering myself about it? Of course it's impossible for Daniel to get involved in those situations; he's too kind, too gentle, too... Wait. Why am I breaking a sweat thinking all of this? I shouldn't. I shouldn't. That's right, Jake is there. he doesn't need me. He just doesn't.

"Kean? What are you doing here? It's almost morning and you should be asleep now." I turned my head round and seen one of Liam's dad behind me. He must hear all the noise I caused earlier. "I-I'm sorry, I couldn't sleep at all and decided to come down here and maybe spend the rest of the evening by myself. Don't worry; Liam is sleeping soundly and heavily. Seems like he's really tired after the show."

"That's good to hear and I couldn't even sleep either." He walked towards me and sat beside. "Uh, you want some coffee? We could really use some now." "Sure." I replied hesitantly, after a long pause. He went around the kitchen; put the kettle on, got two mugs from the cupboard, two small jars and a box of milk from the fridge. He set all of them on top of the counter after the water boiled and made them. "Here, I hope you don't mind that. I put a little sugar on it." handing over Liam's favorite mug to me. I do remember this mug; it was my Christmas gift for him two years ago. I didn't know that he's still using it, and I'm really glad after seeing for a while.

Our sipping mouths on our cups was the only audible noise we can hear, even a falling needle could crack the stillness. He then decided to break the growing silence and awkwardness building up between us as I continue to zone myself away from him. "So, how are you and Liam? I noticed that you are seemed to be a bit more intimate towards each other."

That hit me. I can't help but bow down in total embarrassment. I think they saw us earlier in our love making. My cheeks seemed to be glowing brightly as his dad was giggling. "I-I.. We're.. We're perfectly fine." I looked up to him and beamed an idiotic smile. This is really embarrassing.

"Yeah, I know that but not just on the other person's perspective, but also on the two of you." His tone became a bit serious for a moment. He can see that I'm lost for love with Liam and if I'm not careful, he might as well know that I love somebody else. Good choices of words here are perfectly needed to avoid too much questions.

"Well, uhm, it's a bit harder than I or he thought it would be, working it out day by day, trying to get ourselves out of any trouble and...."

"Don't, face them not escape from them. They'll make your bond even stronger. You'll be left weak and open if you don't. You must stay strong for each other because if you don't, the inevitable will happen." He cut me off. I nodded in agreement and confusion.

"So, uh, how did you, well, work it out... with.... uhm you know..." Fading my voice out before I could say the last few words, mumbling under my breath.

"With Nick? Is that what you mean?" he paused and chuckled before continuing his statement, "It hasn't been a great start, truth be told, when we first met. But first, are you really willing to listen to our boring story? " I nodded in agreement and he continued to tell their tale.

He finished it soon, not even I thought it was already. "If you really love Liam then show it. If not, then please, tell him as early as now. I don't want to see him hurt again. I have seen him hurt a lot of times already Kean and I don't know what I can do if that happens again. I just want you to take care of him"

"No, really I love Liam and-"

"First you must decide, and then you act. Don't deny what you really feel Kean. Take it as my word of advice for you, as a father." He smiled, finished his mug and left me alone with something to ponder the rest of the night. That statement raised a question in my mind that stirs it once more: do I really love Liam or do I still fall for Daniel?

Confusion. I know when he wakes up, I'll feel a bit awkward to him. I don't know, but maybe I'll tell him the truth someday, but not today.