Forever and Always - BoyxBoy -Complete-

15

Kean

"Hey Li, what do you think happened to Dan?" I asked Liam who was having a hard time finishing his album for today's project. He likes doing things as late as he could before he would starting to regret it later. "Uh, sorry. What was it you're saying again?" He didn't tilted his head up nor a slight movement from his shoulders. He pressed on what he was doing and by the time he didn't flinch, I thought he was just trying to ignore me. "Ugh Liam, never mind. I was just going to ask you if what would be good to bring to the hospital later. Any special thoughts?"

"I don't know, maybe chocolate perhaps?" giggling, still continuing on his work without pausing and looking at me. "Are you seriously suggesting me that Daniel would eat that one later? He wouldn't even touch that thing when we go there."

"Why don't you use your brain you dim-witted, lazy slug? You're making a move to him but you're still not thinking of what to do? You are up against Jake here you know, and we all do recognize the fact how they take each other passionately. Better think of something good then or you really need some serious advice from your best friend?" This time he looked at me and smiles and being sarcastic. He likes to throw back things to me and make fun of me.

"Whatever..." I rolled my eyes and turned my head round facing forward. But what he said is true, I am against Jake and this isn't going to be busy after all. I never thought he would raise this one problem, a major one to be exact. If I have to make a move then I should do it fast, as soon as Daniel wakes up. I have no time, spending most of it doodling around and act dumbly like it's never going to happen again.

"You're the one courting him, not me and as if I care on what you're going to do anyways. You go figure it out yourself." bursting into laughter before calming himself down. "I was just asking for opinions..." I replied once he stayed put, fading my voice and bowing down.

Liam shoved my arm slightly with his shoulder. "Hey, you are still this annoying kid and can't take any jokes because you always think things are always as serious as it could get. You better not act like this to him, you know he doesn't want it and he's even more easy-going than me, as you've stated a few months back."

"I know about that, but I can't think of something special to impress him. This is something I am never good at." I shrugged my shoulders and sighs.

"You were never good at this, were. But that was before, right? How did you even manage to impress me again Kean? Those simple things you do to me every day sums it up. There's no need to make things more important to the one you love.  That's the truth behind it. You may never realize it, but I do. I do see the things you do, and those simple stuff already impressed me. Love in not about those special things to for impression, it's the simple facts that you make them special." He said, dropping down the lid cover of his laptop and puts them beside. His smile extended towards his ears, that are slightly glowing red now. He never game this kind of advice before. Maybe it's the after effect or whatever it is called after a break up. I must say, we moved on so easily and to the point that were still enjoying each other's company.

I gave him a hug after we became silent for a while. "Thanks about that, and sorry for asking you about this. I should be the one thinking about this not you. You're my best friend after all."

"Hah, that's what best friends are for, you idiot. You can buy flowers for him later. Hm, maybe a dozen of roses, like you used to give me or a bunch of tulips. I saw Jake gave him some before and he was happier than the last time he gave him some roses." He broke away from my embrace, which he gladly returned. 

"No way? You're stalking them? How did you find out those stuff?" I asked him in my surprise at what he just said. "Duh, Jake loves to give him stuff in public and we can't hardly notice not to notice them from afar. Don't you remember that last time, they kissed in the middle of the field during lunch break? He pulled Daniel out and surprisingly kissed him. Hmph, I bet you can't do anything like that. You're as dull as a hammer anyways."

"What? I didn't know any of those. Not until now that you told me about them. Is there anything else I need to know?"

He laughed like a crazed maniac, holding his stomach tight and catches a few deep breaths. "How can you get so dumb not to take note about them? It's called public display of affection, Kean. You really never know any of this don't you?"

"Uh, no. What the hell are those anyways?" I asked him out of my curiosity, but I never knew anything about them, apparently. It was never my thing to know every person's interests or favorites. Even I don't know anything about Liam's personal interests, as shameful as it could be. "I wouldn't tell you... It's for you to know and for me to find out.." still giggling, as he gets up and pokes my nose.

Liam

 Rip.

"Even a single thing about it?" He asks, looking dumbfounded. "Uh... No." Poking my tongue out, and making him irk. This is my only approach to him that I can hide what I feel. It still hurts me. He asks me about Daniel, like hell I care of what he does. But he's still my best friend and he considers me as his too. Those things cannot just be put aside simply because we have a history before, even for a small amount of time we spent together. Those were the most happiest days of my life, to be with the one I love.

Yet, here he is now, only as my best friend. I should be contented with it. But why the hell I am not satisfied with all the outcomes. I was the one who told him to break up with me and take Daniel with him. I'm still the one, who's not having the right feeling.

"Come on, please. I'm going to give you something you'll like. For instance, the polaroid camera you've been wanting to buy but can't. Just to have this one favor. Please..."

Rip.

His sound, his voice, the one that stirs my souls every time I hear it is even giving me a spine-tingling chills surging like electricity. But the fact that we're just friends now is irrefutable, undeniable. It's like heart i being slashed by a sharp knife, a big cut that lets all of my blood drip like waterfalls. The continuous rip within me is the only pain I can feel. Not a single physical harm can make me feel better that what I feel before.

"As I said you dumb lazy slug, you're the one courting him not me. You're presence beside him can make it more special. Besides, he needs someone more than his boyfriend now. You are a perfect candidate to that position." I looked at him, smiling, trying to camouflage the deepest pain right now. I can hide it, I don't know how long though. But I know, I'll be satisfied when Kean is with me.

"Fine, I'll go with you later then. I'll see you at the school gates after class." I said to him after he looked like he's about to give up. He still needs a friend to push him. I think that's my job, to be his friend. I don't want to see him leave me, but I want him to be happy. This is the right choice I have made.

"Thanks Li! You're the bestest friend I've ever had." Kean flew away with a gentle smile. I know he really loves him, and I won't get into that no more.