Forever and Always - BoyxBoy -Complete-

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Jake

"I'll see you later Kean. I hope you'll have a good time with him and keep you're promise to me; you'll never ever hurt my best friend. He's the only family I've got to cherish and he's like a brother to me already. I don't want him to get so hurt or what because of some stupid jerk. I know I am, that's why I'm leaving him to you. You're a very kind person to him, who I'm not, and I'm just too much of a perfect one for him. Call us over-rated but we just are. He means a lot to me, so I was to him before, and now, you're his number one. I'll be very glad to see you both together, where you can be happy." Uncontrollably suppressing my tears, sadness, being broken in front of Kean as we shook our hands, I walked out of the scene as quickly as I could pick up my pace, swiftly passing through Daniel's room and took a last glimpse of him behind the small glass window on the door. It's not that I'm leaving this town, I just wanted to savor the last of him when he's by himself because I know, once he gets out of this room, he'll be bound to somebody else, someone like Kean. He was just sitting on his bed, blankets down his legs and eyes staring at the sight of the town as what he could see through his window. I'm still hoping that the old him will return but maybe when that time comes, the small flickering light I tried to cover might be blown away already.

I'd rather lose him to Kean than to anybody else. There is no other person I can trust Daniel with aside from him. I know he won't do anything stupid to him, unlike me. I'm such a jerk, such an idiot, a moron and all other things you may call me. I do deserve them all, but I also deserve some sympathies. I can take insults but I can't take anything that's way over the edge, the likes of what he was telling me earlier. I could have snapped the moment he unleashed those harsh words from that mouth of his but I know it was just his self-defence; an act of defending himself from my assault. He knew I'd be fuming by them, but he didn't show any fear, more of a concern, convincing me that what I'm doing was just a stupid idea. I've made myself aware of that as well, since I did talk to a lot of persons, Paul, Zoey and Jeff to be specific, before I made up my mind to do it and that I'm ready to let him go.

Recalling all that had happened for the whole week, I didn't have any word to Paul saying thank you to him. What I did most of the time to him were insulting him, making him worry about me when he shouldn't and well, be there as my companion whenever I felt so lonely. I know I am now, and most likely I'm back to square one, start over with somebody else I guess; a quick way of moving on from my tragedy. I don't know who or what else is there in store for me but... Paul, I guess I have to thank you for being here for me all the time when Daniel wasn't around where he should be.

I should probably get him with something that he would love or try to remember any of his favorites. It's been really quite a long time since I last saw him and had a proper conversation, except yesterday, to get to know him better. If my memory serves me right, it was just before he left without any notice or giving me his reason. And now that I know what it was, maybe it's the best thing for me to do and bring them back. This is going to be a big push for myself, not only I'm going to move on but probably get to know my.... ex-boyfriend? Maybe it's not the right word to refer Daniel, best friend is a more suitable one. Considering him as my ex-boyfriend may just mean that I really lost him but I didn't, he's still my best friend and he's worth the million smiles, a thousand hugs, just like before we were together, just like when we were still kids, when we just enjoyed every single moment giggling and playing like any other kid would do. He's still like my world to me when we're just together.

By the time I went to find something for Paul after a quick drive to the mall, I came across once more with the bitch I shouldn't have seen or else my head would explode once more, though this time we're in a public place and she was with her friends so I need to calm myself down. I walked passed through them though she was able to catch in my scent. "Jakey baby! How are you today?" She quickly got hold of my arm and pulled me in. Her arms were now around my neck. I just looked at her, disgusted and already annoyed. "Bitch, if you don't let go of me, I'll personally end your life here. I'm not in the mood to mess with you so please leave me. Alone."