Forever and Always - BoyxBoy -Complete-

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Daniel

As much as I'm more concerned, I am still with Kean, no matter what happens. I don't give a damn about Jake or whatever he thinks he's doing with me. He's got a boyfriend and that he should stick his nose up to him, not me. And since both of them already knew about the real thing, they my be talking something that I don't know or might be somewhat about me. I don't care. I don't really, really care. All I want is Kean, that's all. He matters to me the most now.

But I can sense that he's a bit distant from me for some time now. Maybe it's me getting away from him because I'm not with him most of the time, or if ever he asks questions about what happened that day, I simply give him excuses to leave or tell him that I'm busy. Well, I'm not really that busy but I guess it's up for me to cover whatever remains I have. It's like walking on snow, without leaving any footprint that you've been there.  Maybe I'm just giving him more reason to leave me or.... "Ugh, messed up!" I screamed, in the middle of class. Everyone turned their heads on me, staring like I'm a crazed man. I laughed shyly and scratched the back of my neck. "Mr. Summers, do you have any problems at all?"

"No ma'am." I responded. "Then keep your mouth shut and let me finish my discussion." She said back, making the rest of the class turn their attention back to her. A piece of paper was handed over to me by Zoey. "Hey, Kean wants to talk to you later. He can't seem to contact you, he says, and he's quite worried or something. I think you really need to speak to him soon."  I looked at Zoey who was smiling right across me and gave her a nod.

After my class, I rushed out of the class room and accidentally bumping into Jake. Not minding him screaming my name just to stop me, I quicken my pace and started to make my way towards Kean whom I assume was going to his next class. Right on the spot, I caught up with him. "Kean!", launching myself into him, my arms flung around his neck, "I got your message from Zoey. I'm so sorry about these past few days, my head just seem to be aching so frequently."

"It's alright Dan, I suppose it can't be helped," He paused, then dragged me to the nearest bench, "uhm, there's something you should know. Uh... I don't know how to put it but..."

"You still love Liam?" I said directly ahead of him, which made him quite surprised and all. His eyes widened and he looked like a man struck by lightning. "H- how?.. What?.." 

"I know about it Kean, I can see it through your eyes. You love me but I don't know, I think it's just infatuation. The way you're feeling to me is just like what your head starts to think. But what you truly feel is different." I held his hand up, between our chests. "Kean, go. I'm not going to hold you back, it's what you truly feel and I don't deserve your love. Liam does."

"B- but what about-"

"Me? Don't worry, I'll be fine. I'm always gonna be fine. Just worry about yourself and Liam." And then I pulled him in and wrapped my arms around. "Dan, thank you." He whispered to my ear.

It's hard to bear this feeling, yet somehow all the guilt has been lifted up from me. Though a portion of it still is left but that's bearable. There's only one place I can go now. I need to wind up my thought.