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25- Movie Date

January 23, 2016, 23 weeks & 7 days

Kylie:

Justin and i agreed to go out to the movies since we haven't been seen out much together. We haven't really spoken too much. Every time we talk to each other it just ends up with us fighting and saying hurtful things that we don't mean.
Justin was driving us to the movie theater where we have our date. The car was filled with nothing but silence and a hint of the radio playing. I decided to break the tension that was driving me insane.

"Look Justin, I'm sorry. I've said a lot of hurtful and mean things to you and I'm really and truly sorry for being so rude to you. This is your child too and you have every right to be in her if you're doing what's right." It grew silent making me regret even opening my mouth. I felt his eyes land on me a couple of times then back on the rode.

"I'm sorry too." Is all he said with no emotion, his grip on the steering wheel tighten as his eyes locked on the road and his jaw clenched.
"Are you really, because it sure as hell doesn't seem like it." I rolled my eyes and rested my head against the window.

Minutes passed before I felt the car take an immediate stop making me lean up a bit and fall back into the seat.

"What the hell Justin!?" I had a frown on my face as I looked at him, his look was way scarier than mine, making my face soften up, making me lean backing in the door afraid of what was to come next.
"you know I'm not sorry, I'm not sorry for anything that I said. I'm not going to fake apologize like you, you meant every word you said and so did i."

I shook my head gently as I sat back up, "no, that's not true." I tried to rest my hand on top of his but he yanked it back quickly causing me to jump.
"No, we wouldn't have said all of those things if we didn't think it was true. You think I'm going to be a dead beat dad just like my dad which is why you don't want our kid with me and I think our kid will be stripper or something if you raise em. We meant everything we said we just never had the balls to say it." He let out a sigh and continued to drive to movie.
I bit my lip not wanting the sounds of me weeping leave my mouth. It sucks that that's all he thinks of me and my family, some whores we're more than that!

Before I knew it we were at the movie theater, paparazzi already taking pictures. I tried my best to fix my face that had tears running down it. I looked in the mirror to see my nose as red as a button, my eyes as puffy as can be.
I felt eyes on me as I cleaned up my running make up and applied so more on.
I felt a tap on my shoulder and was greeted my a tissue, I gave him a small smile before blotting my face.

I tried to open the car door but a hand grabbed my arm and pulled me back down.
"Wait," I looked at the hand resting on my forearm and then looked over at Justin.

"I'm sorry, really sorry this time. I don't mean to put you in so much pain I just want you to know that in dealing with a lot and I keep taking it out on you and I'm really sorry." I licked my lips and nodded my head before whispering a soft 'okay' I shot him a smile before looking into his eyes. I could tell he was being sensre by the look in his glossy eyes.
"It's okay Justin, I understand. I just wish you would talk to me or talk to someone about them instead of us arguing all the time." I put my hand on his leg and he nodded his head.

"Come on." I smiled as I got out the car. We met in front of the car and joined hands as we walked into the movie theatre. We were soon joined by a few fans since we decided not to bring security. We took pictures and signed a few things before heading into the movie theatre.
As the trailers were rolling, I was stuffing my face with popcorn. Just as the movie started and the lights dimmed I felt Justin lean over to whisper in my ear, "is it safe for a pregnant woman to watch a scary movie? I've head a lot of people say 'the boy' is pretty terrifying."

"I'm sure it's fine, but I have heard about a few woman who got so scared that the baby popped right out when she screamed too hard." I saw Justin's eyes widen causing me to giggle.
"I'm just kidding, it's totally fine. Stop worrying." He nodded his head before facing back to watch the movie.

I felt a hand reach in my popcorn bag causing me to smack the hand. I heard an "ouch" escape Justin's mouth as I popped some popcorn into my mouth.
I looked over to my left to see him rubbing the hand that I just smacked causing me to let out a laugh. Thankfully there weren't many people watching the movie.

I covered my mouth as soon as the laugh escaped my mouth. I felt a piece of popcorn hit me in the face causing me to hit Justin's arm.
"Don't waste my popcorn!" I earned a loud shush from a family a few seats below us.

I covered my mouth hold back a laugh Justin had a cheesy closed lip smile on his face, I loved when he did that. He winked at me before turning to watch the movie.
A smile was plastered on my face as turned back to watch the movie. The smile soon turned into a lip bite once I felt a hand brush past mine. I looked over to my left to see Justin licking his lips and slightly begin to look down at my hand.

Before I knew it the movie was over and I barely payed any attention.
"Are you ready to go?" Justin stood up as he waited for me. I nodded my head before heading out the movie theatre.
"What where you doing back there?" I looked over at Justin who was now driving.
"What are you talking about?" He kept his eyes on the road as he had a confused look on his face.
"The brushing against my hand." I smiled at him once he let out a little chuckle.
He shrugged his shoulders as he looked over at me.
I rolled my eyes at him as he pulled into my driveway.
"I actually had a good time, I'm glad we went out." I smiled as he nodded in agreement.
"Um so if you want to you can come inside and look at the baby's room if you want." I bit my lip nervously why the hell did I even say anything?

"Sure." He smiled as he turned the car off and waited for me to lead the way.
"So do you like it? Since I don't know the gender of my baby I decided to go with a very neutral room." I smiled and sat down in the rocking chair.
"I like your baby's room." He let out a sigh as he rested his arm on the crib.
"Why did you say it like that?" I sat up looking at Justin, trying to figure out why he was so hurt. "Well those were your words a few seconds ago, it's whatever though." He shrugged it off.
"Do you want something to eat?" I nodded my head as he walked down to the kitchen.
I feel as for claiming my baby, our baby as just mine but I still don't even know if Justin is ready to be a dad.
I felt my eyes began to get heavy before dozing off.