Silver Hearts (Completed)

SH15

SH15

The next day, I felt relieved when Silver told me that he had to do something again for work. Nabawasan ang pangamba kong baka magpumilit nanama siyang sumama sa lakad ko.

"Let's have dinner later outside. Okay?" He told me before leaving. When the clock strikes at 1pm, lumabas na ako dahil may plano pa akong magmalling before meeting Scarlet. Gusto ko lang maglakad lakad.

It was quarter to 3 when I got to tge coffee shop. Nagulat nga ako at nandun na si Scarlet. She was that eager to talk to me huh?

Pagkalapit ko sa upuan, tumayo ang fiancee niya telling us that he will just sit on the other table. I nodded at him saka umupo sa harap ni Scarlet. She is wearing a dress in which maluwag sakanya kaya di masyadong halata ang laki ng tiyan niya.

"I already ordered your favorite." Yun agad ang sabi ni Scarlet habang nginuso ang frappuchino sa harap ko. I grimaced. Not thaf iniinsulto ko si Scarlet but I really prefer Calamansi juice as of this time.

"Thank you." Sagot ko nalang. After that, there is an awkward silence. Yes. I don't know how to start the conversation. Why would I even start? She is the one who planned this meet up. I don't need to start talking.

"So... Uhmm.. How are you?" After a long deafening silence, nagsalita din si Scarlet.

"I am fine. Usual. How about you? And ilang months na yang dinadala mo?" I don't mean to be rude pero parang iba ang dating ng tanong ko. As much as I want, I will be civil.

"Okay naman." She looked down. "Uhm... 6 months na." She answered.

"Ohh." Napatango nalang ako. How sure is she na hindi si Silver ang ama niyan? Last 6 months, they are still together.

"I know what you are thinking V. Hindi si Silver ang ama. I am sure of it." She answered before I even asked.

"How come?" She's cheating with Silver for more than 5 months? That's ridiculous! Habang inaasam asam ko si Silver, she was there cheating? Sana sinabi nalang niya nang maagang napunta sakin si Silver!

"I don't know... But can I start from the start V? Gusto ko talaga to sabihin sayo I just don't know how." She still held her gaze down.

I expelled a deep sigh before answering. "You can tell me everything in any way that you want." Just make sure I'll understand it. And there was silence again before she started.

"Alam kong mali akong sagotin at mahalin si Silver una pa lang V. Alam kong magagalit ka but I can't help it. He's sweet, gentleman and perfect. All of that image are formed because of the way you describe him to me. I thought he is the perfect guy because you're telling me the same.

And indeed he is sweet and gentle. Kaya nahulog ako. By that moment, he was looking for comfort too. Lagi siyang nag oopen up saakin pag sinusundo ka niya at hinihintay ka namin sa klase mo.

He was sharing things tulad nalang ng nasasakal na siya sa pamilya niya, sa pressure, sa responsibilities. Being the elder child and heir of their company, he needs to act in accord to everything that people around him tells.

At wala siyang mapagsabihan na sakal na sakal na siya. He can't tell you even if you're the closest person to him because you're one of them. Both of your parents are pressuring him to be close to you and be with you always dahil gusto nilang makasal kayo sa huli."

Bumigat ang damdamin ko sa mga sinasabi ni Scarlet. I don't know if it's true but Silver's been struggling before and I am one of the reasons? I didn't know I am hurting him just because of my presence. Unti unting nangingilid ang luha ko as I let Scarlet continue talking.

"He wants an escape V. And I gave him that. I listened to him. I gave advices. I fell for him. I served as his defiance to his family and to you. And it was hard because everyone disagreed with our relationship. Doon ko naramdaman na kailangan niya talaga ng karamay sa laban niya...

But after months of our relationship, naramdaman kong may kulang. I know Silver's always there being sweet, loving and caring but I know there's something wrong. He was always hinting for marriage which I always refuse kasi alam kong may mali.

It was wrong V kasi hindi niya ako mahal. He was blinded by the idea that I could give him freedom from all of you if he's with me. I know I sounded too irrational pero naramdaman ko yun. I felt the emptiness of our relationship.

That's the time I meet my first love. And yes, he's my fiancee now. I just knew the moment na nakita ko ang ex ko na hindi ko totoong mahal si Silver. That I was just infatuated because I chose to. And that he actually didn't love me at all. So I cheated."

"You should have broken up with him!" I interrupted. Umaagos na ang luha sa mata ko. Nasulyapan kong tumayo ang fiancee niyang si Jerome but Scarlet immediatley signaled him that it's okay. Scarlet's been crying too.

"I tried V! I tried pero naawa ako sakanya. I told you I am his escape from all of his stress and pressures. I cannot just be part of his missery Violet so I did have a relationship with Jerome on Silver's back...

Pero umiwas din ako. Alam yun ni Silver. I am giving hints that I want to be out of our relationship pero ayaw niya. So when our anniversary came, he dicided to propose formally para hindi na ako makatanggi. I know his surprise V. I know you helped him. That's when I realized that I have to tell him the truth lalo na't buntis ako."

"He got into an accident because of you!" I almost shouted. I didn't know na may mga complications din pala ang relationship nila. I always see them really smitten towards each other. Lagi rin saakin sinasabi ni Silver kung gaano sila kasaya sa relationship nila and I still remember how those memories shattered my heart before.

"I am sorry V... I am really sorry." This time, napalakas na ang pag iyak niya. Jerome stood up and immediately hugged her as he wipes her tears. Umiiyak din ako but I did the honor to wipe my own tears.

"Nagkaamnesia siya and he doesn't remember you Scarlet. He thought that I am his fiance now." Matigas kong sabi kahit umiiyak parin ako.

"I know.." she silently mumbled. "His parents told me and warned me not to get near him anymore."

Hindi na ako nagulat don. Knowing our parents. They always get what they want.

"And I wish you happiness V. Alam kong aalagaan mo siya dahil alam ko kung gaano mo siya kamahal but please. Don't pressure him. He needs you. Silver loves you. Alam ko yun because even if you hated me before, he didn't stop caring for you. You see V, hindi ka nya matiis. When you argue with him about me, he always find ways na magkabati kayo. He always talk non stop about you and your childhood days. I thought narining ko na yun lahat sayo pero mas marami pa pala akong di narinig dahil siya ang nagkwento non. He treasures you too much V. Just feel his pain."

"I don't know about him having a hard time." I mumbled through sobs. Her fiancee handed me a tissue kaya tinanggap ko. I salute him for staying silent while Scarlet and I talk. And I can see how much he cares  for her. Nakwento na saakin ni Scarlet dati itong first love niya. I just can't remember the details.

"I know V that's why I want to talk to you dahil gusto ko kayo na talaga ang magkatuloyan. Even if Silver remembers, he will still be with you dahil hindi ka matitiis non. And I also want to say sorry if I hurt your feelings. I should've been sensitive."

"I am sorry too Scarlet. I've been such a close minded bitch. Ni hindi ko man lang nitake consider yung situation mo o ni Silver. This is all my fault. I should be blamed!" Napalakas ang iyak ko. Hindi ko alam kong bakit nagseself pity ako pero kasalanan ko naman talaga.

"Shhh. V, it's not your fault. It's ours. Everyone make mistakes that we are bound to correct." Tumayo siya at umupo sa tabi ko nang makitang mas umiiyak na ako kaysa sa kanya. She hugged me. My bestfriend hugged me! "V... Stop crying please. It's okay. Everything will be okay."

"I am sorry Scarlet... I am so sorry if I've been so bad to you. If siniraan kita sa pamilya namin at kay Silver. Di ko dapat yun ginawa. I am really sorry Scarlet." Kumuha ulit ako ng tissue at nag iiyak nanaman.

"Stop crying V... It's okay..."