Silver Hearts (Completed)

SH22

SH22

Nakarating kami sa sinasabing seafood restaurant. Pagpasok pa lang namin ay nagustohan ko na ang lugar. It was cozy and it's on sea side. Agad kong natanaw ang dagat nung papasok pa lang kami at naisipan ko talaga na doon umupo malapit sa may mga hampas ng alon.

"What do you want?" tanong bigla saakin ni Silver. I was spacing out dahil manghang mangha ako sa tubig dagat. My trance was only cut by his question.

Tiningala ko ang listahan ng mga putahe na nakapaskil sa dingding. All of it were seafoods. I cannot decide what to chose. Pakiramdam ko, gusto ko lahat kainin.

"Kahit ano." I replied without taking a glance at Silver. Ayuko paring kausapin siya but things seems so complicated.

Naglakad na ako papunta sa mga tables nang nagorder si Silver. Umupo ako sa pinakamalapit sa dagat. I can clearly sea the waves hitting the stone shore. Ang sarap sa pandinig. I can also see a floating cottage not far from the restaurant.

Buti nalang walang kataotao. Yung mga costumer na iba ay sa loob kumain. Ako lang ang nasa labas da gilid ng dagat. This place is nice to be a sanctuary.

My mind flew back to Silver and everything he's doing. I am here to stay away and give him space but our family is making it hard for us. Napabuntong hininga ako.

I've been hurt. Yes, I've been suffering from this agony since I felt inlove with Silver. But I am too tired and I should set my priorities now. I cannot chase Silver forever. Magiging ina na ako and I think I need to take that responsibility seriously especially that Silver doesn't want to take part on it.

Napatingin ulit ako sa dagat. I have plans. I've already made my mind and the only thing I need to do is tell Silver about it and stop our parents on whatever plans they are trying to make.

Alam ko naman na ginagawa nila 'to dahil ito ang sa tingin nilang makakabuti saamin. And Mamu knew to well how I love Silver to the core that's why she is insisting this. But they still need to reconsider things especially now that Silver and I are only hurting each other.

Hindi nagtagal ay umupo si Silver sa harap ko. He is only wearing his V neck shirt habang ang polo shirt niya ay nasa balikat ko. Mabuti nalang at di ganoon kalakas abg hangin para liparin ulit ang buhok ko.

"They're still preparing our order." Yun lang ang sabi niya. I only took a glance at him at lumingon ulit sa dagat.

He heaved a sigh nang mapansin niyang wala akong balak kausapin siya. Heck! Why would I? Aasa lang ako sa mga ginagawa niya. I should remind myself that the Silver I am with now is the one who sees me as his bestfriend and can only offer a brotherly love. He cares. Dati pa naman kaya lagi akong umaasa. At ang kasama ko ngayon ay hindi ang Silver na pinaniwalang mahal din ako. I should always know. I should. Dahil sawang sawa na ang puso kong umasa at masaktan.

I prepared myself for this since I decided to act as his fiancee. Alam kong sa huli ay masasaktan parin ako. But on the process, lalo lang akong nahulog kaya heto, lalo lang din akong nasaktan.

"Violet, we should really talk. Alam kong galit ka parin sa ginawa ko kanina. I promise I won't do it again." Hinawakan niya ang kamay kong nakapatong sa table kaya agad ko yun binawi. I don't want him touching me. Dahil alam kong wala lang yun sakanya habang saakin, lahat kahulugan at pag asa ang binibigay saakin.

"Yeah. We should really talk." I said coldy avoiding his gaze. Hindi ko yun kayang salubongin.

"So when do you plan on going home? My Mom's been calling kung kailan na daw tayo babalik."

"I don't know. Pwede ka namang maunang umuwi. Just tell them I'm safe here." I still answered coldly.

"I can't leave you here alone Violet." I can sense the sincerity in his voice pero alam kong dahil lang yun sa pinagsamahan namin ng matagal na panahon. Hindi dahil gusto niyang kasama ako.

"Akala ko ba galit ka saakin Silver?" I faced him by this time now. "Bakit ka pa naparito? You know you can leave me here alone. I can handle myself. I don't need you or any chaperone with me."

"Hindi kita basta bastang pwedeng iwan dahil buntis ka. My conscience will eat me if ever something happened to you and to that child." Agaran niyang sagot. Ha! That child? That child? He is addressing his own child like that? Biglang nabuhay lahat ng galit na naramdaman ko kanina.

"Then I can handle my child alone Silver. You don't need to worry. I will handle this on my own hanggang paglaki niya. You don't need to take the burden of being part of his or her life!" I clenched my fist. Napaigting din ang panga ni Silver at tiningnan ako ng may galit sa mata niya.

"You cannot do that Violet. I am still the father of that child. Pag malaman ng mga magulang natin na buntis ka, you very well know what part I am going to take in your life and that child's." Pagalit niyang sagot. Napapikit ako para kalmahin ang sarili ko. Naiiyak na naman ako. I shouldn't. Controlling my emotion should be my first step on acting strong.

"Then we shall not tell them." Nagtaas baba ang dibdib ko sa paghinga sa pilit kong pagpapakalma sa sarili ko.

"That's impossible Violet." Kunot noo niyang sagot habang umiiling.

"It is Silver. Pagbalik natin, I will immediately arrange my papers and passport and I will fly abroad. Idadahilan kong magaaral ako ng fashion design sa ibang bansa. I will give birth outside the country and no one shall know about it."

"You cannot just be missing for months Violet and comeback with a child!" Nakikita ko galit na galit na talaga si Silver pero mas galit ako. Mas paninindigan ko ang desisyon na 'to. This is for his own good anyway.

"Who told you that I'll be gone for months Silver? It will be years." I dared to look back at his blazing eyes. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang kinakagalit niya. I don't care. All I care is my child's welfare. I don't want him or her to grow with his father's hatred and the feeling of being unwanted. Kahit ako lang, mamahalin ko ng buo ang anak ko.

"All you have to do is not tell our parents about my pregnancy. Wala pang nakakaalam sa kanila. When I give birth, I'll let my child carry my last name. Wag kang mag alala kung sa tingin mong bibigyan kita ng responsibilidad. " Hindi na siya nagsalita. He just glared at me kaya umiwas ako ng tingin. I looked at the sea to calm myself.

"Heto naman ang gusto mo diba? Just be free Silver and think like nothing happened between us."