Silver Hearts (Completed)

SH25

SH25

True to his words, Silver did sleep at my room with the same bed. I tried protesting but he just ignored me and dozed off to sleep.

Gusto ko na sana siyang awayin but I felt tired because of all the dramas that happened since morning so I also dozed off to sleep.

Nanaginip pa akong niyayakap pa ako ni Silver habang bumubulong.

"I love you Baby. Stop making everything hard for me."

Nagising ako na humahagulgol nang iyak. I dreamt that Silver is calling me Baby like how he used to. Umiyak ako dahil alam kong hindi na yun mauulit at sa panaginip ko lang masisilayan uli.

Napalingon ako sa gilid ng kama at wala na si Silver. Tiningnan ko ang oras sa phone ko at nakitang tanghaling tapat na.

Napaiyak pa akong lalo. I cannot understand myself. Hindi na ba ako magsasawang umiyak sa bagay na paulit ulit kong iniiyakan? Being exposed to pain suppose to make me numb but no. The more I endure it, the more it hurts.

Biglaang pumasok si Silver sa room ko at agad namutla nang makita nakaupo ako sa kama at humahagulgol ng iyak. He immediately sat beside me and hugged me. I tried to push him but I felt too weak to do so.

"Hush. Tahan na. What's wrong?" Malumanay ang boses niya at halata ang sinseridad doon. Mas lalo lang akong naiyak. These gestures make me fall for him over and over again. Kahit walang malisya, binibigyan ko ng kahulogan. The one at fault here is me because I chose to assume and hope even if I had zero chance.

"I dreamt of something." I almost whispered as I wet Silver's shirt. Nakasandal ang noo ko sa dibdib niya hanggat sa maramdaman kong humigpit ang yakap niya.

"It's just a nightmare Baby. Tahan na."

Mas lalo akong napaiyak. He just called me Baby. Nabuhay nanaman ang pag asa sa puso ko pero agad ko din itong iwinaksi. Of course, he used to call me baby kahit noong wala siyang amnesia. He used to say it if he wanted something from me and now he wants me to stop crying.

Gusto ko sanang isagot na hindi ako nanaginip ng masama. Na gustong gusto ko ito, and the thing that made me cry is because I woke up and it's just a dream.

It took me minutes bago kumalma. Tumayo na rin si Silver at inaya akong magbreakfast. Tumango nalang ako saka pumasok sa CR para magshower at magbihis na rin. I plan to enjoy my last day here in MisOr. I shall enjoy every bits of it.

Nagsuot ako ng navy blue bikini sa loob atsaka sinamahan ng isang see through hanging shirt at denim shorts. Gusto ko magbabad sa tubig dagat mamaya. I wore my flipflops at sumama na ako kay Silver papuntang breakfast. As much as I want to refuse, wala rin naman akong magagawa. It's just me and him. I just want peace.

Bumili pala siya ng take out kaya doon kami kumain sa isa sa mga cottages malapit sa dagat. It's table is made of wood and the long chairs are made of bamboo. Para lang siyang nipa hut.

Kumain nalang ako ng tahimik at sumusulyap ng paunti unti sa mga ibang guests na naglalangoy at nag eenjoy sa dagat. It's surely fun kung marami kang kasama. It's fun when you think of nothing and enjoy life. Yung wala kang agam agam at alam mong walang naghihintay na problema sayo.

Pagkatapos kong kumain ay nagpahinga muna ako. Silver's been staring at me for the whole time. Napapaiwas lang siya ng tingin kong kailangan niyang sumubo sa kinakain niya. I ignored him though. After this day or maybe later, I'll talk to him and clarify things for us to plan everything before we could come back. As of now, I plan to enjoy my day and shove away all the things that's been bothering me.