Silver Hearts (Completed)

SH31

SH31

Nakatingin lang ako sa mukha niya habang marahang hinahaplos ang pisngi ko. I still can't believe everything that he said. It's impossible. Everything is like a dream because Silver confessing to me only happens in my dream.

"No! Hindi mo ako mahal, Silver." I slapped his hands away. I hysterically walked towards the sofa. Umupo ako doon at napahilamos ng mukha. Silver can't love me. This is not real. "Did Mamu and Tita Kath force you to convince me? Silver naman, wag ka masyadong magpacontrol sa mga magulang natin. I know you're just doing what they want but you cannot let them dictate the things that you do."

"Is that what you really think, Violet?" Naglakad siya palapit saakin at umupo sa tabi ko. "You really think that everything that I do were told by our parents?

"Of course! Kasi ganoon yun!" I immediately wiped another batch of tears in my cheeks. Kailan ba ako mauubusan ng luha? "Alam ko, Silver. You are too pressured by our families kaya nahihirapan ka na. Pati saakin, nasasakal ka na. I know, you're just doing this for the sake of our family and maybe for our baby but that doesn't mean that you cannot have your happiness, Silver. And I am setting you free, ayaw mo ba noon?"

"You are talking about my happiness, Violet, but have you asked me kung ano ba ang ikasasaya ko?" His hands reached for my chin so he can let me face him. Sinalubong ko ang malalim niyang titig. His eyes are still bloodshot red and his eyebags are very visible.

"Your freedom, Silver. Yon ang ikasasaya mo." Deretsong sagot ko sakanya. Umiling lang siya at pumikit habang malalim na bumuntong hininga. He opened his eyes again to meet my gaze. Mas lalong naging seryoso ang tingin niya.

"I am no longer free the moment you invaded my mind and my heart, Baby." He cupped my face by this time. "And I am willing to prove to you that what I felt is not out of guilt or pressure by our parents. Sigurado ako sa nararamdaman ko sayo. Believe me, Violet. "

Lalong bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko sa sinabi ni Silver. Lalo lang rin dumami ang luhang umagos sa mata ko. Gustong gusto kong maniwala sa sinasabi niya pero natatakot ako. Natatakot akong masaktan. I once believed when he said he loved me, that's when he had his amnesia, and without even noticing, nasaktan nanaman ako dahil lang sa simpleng paniniwala kong mahal niya ako.

"I..." I shook my head again. Sinubukan kong ilayo ang mukha ko sakanya pero hindi niya ako hinayaan. "I don't know, Silver, and I don't want to. Sawang sawa na ako masaktan. Sawang sawa na akong umasa. Please spare me the pain this time, Silver. Maawa ka naman saakin."

I know my voice sounded so hurt because I do feel hurt. Bugbog sarado na ang puso ko sa sakit kaya gusto na nitong mamahinga, and the only way I can think of saving my heart is to escape. Pero bakit ganito? Kung kailan gusto ko nang bumitaw saka naman dumarating si Silver? He's even saying that he loves me.

He moved closer towards me and slowly kissed every tears that has been non-stop flowing. Hinalikan niya ang mga luha ko na parang dinaramdam din niya ang sakit na nararamdaman ko.

"I am sorry Baby for everything." His kiss slowly moved downwards until it reached my lips. His lips slowly touched mine like it's the most fragile thing in the earth. He kissed me with all the sinserity and love, and I felt it, I felt genuinely loved by Silver. "Let me make it up to you. Just give me another chance and I will prove to you how real my love is."

"Pero-" I tried to whisper in between our kisses but he is fast enough to claim my lips again before I could talk.

"And I promise to avoid not hurting you, Baby. I can't promise na hindi kita masasaktan habang minamahal kita but I can promise that I will do everything so you won't feel the pain anymore." He said after ending the kiss. Napatulala lang ako sa harap niya. Is it wrong for me to feel hope again? To believe that Silver and I still had a chance for the love that I always wanted? If it's wrong then I am doing a terrible mistake now because I am hoping and believing that Silver did really love me at all.

"Can you give me that chance, Baby?" He huskily said. Pakiramdam ko, lunod na lunod na ako sa titig niya sa mga mata ko. I felt hypnotized so I just nodded. I nodded because I want to give myself a chance for everything that I wanted, and that everything is Silver.

He smiled widely when he saw my response. Agad niya akong niyakap ng mahigpit habang paulit ulit niyang sinasabing mahal niya ako. And all I can feel is joy. Dahil masayang masaya talaga ako.

After hugging me, he immediately devoured my lips again, and I openly obliged. Lumalim ang halikan namin kaya napakapit ako sa batok niya. I even moaned when his kiss traveled down my jaw and down my neck. Nag init agad ang katawan ko pero bago pa may mangyari saamin ay tumigil na siya.

"Have you eaten dinner?" Hindi ko alam kung saan nanggaling ang inis ko sakanya nang itigil niya ang halik niya saakin para lang itanong yun. Food is the least thing that I wanted now!

Umiling nalang ako saka sumimangot. He just laughed at my reaction. He kissed me once again pero smack lang.

"Then let's eat first before we do anything," His hands slowly caressed my tummy. Tiningnan niya yon at nakita ko ang munting pagkislap ng mata niya habang tinitingnan ang tyan ko. "I'll have to feed the both of you first before I satisfy myself."

Hinatak niya ako patayo at tinanong kung saan banda ang kitchen ko. Tinuro ko naman at naglakad kami papunta doon. He let me sit in one of the chair as he proposed na siya nalang ang magluluto.

"Bakit walang laman ang ref mo?" He frowned. I don't know what to answer. My mind's still wandering on the things that just happened awhile ago. Inaalala ko kung totoo bang nangyari yon o hindi.

"At bakit puro cup noodles ang laman bg counter mo?" Napabalik ang tingin ko kay Silver. Nakatayo na pala siya sa counter at pinagbubuksan lahat ng lalagyan ko ng stocks ng pagkain ko.

"Uhm, I forgot to buy my groceries. Tsaka... Sa labas naman ako kumakain."

Kumunot lang ang noo niya atsaka lumingon saakin. I prepared myself for another sermon from him pero walang nangyari. He just stared at me then his stare became soft.

"I should really have taken care of you." Naglakad siya palapit saakin. "Pack some of your things, you will live with me at my condo again."

Gusto kong umapela pero nahila na niya ako palapit sa kwarto ko. I told him that I will shower first at pumayag naman siya. Nagsuot lang ako ng simple at maluwag na hoodie para matakpan ang lumalaki ko nang tyan and well, my breasts. I just wore a spaghetti strap beneath dahil pakiramdam ko sumikip saakin lahat ang mga bra ko. I paired it with a skinny jeans and a strapped sandals.

Kinuha ko ang maleta ko at naglagay ng mga damit. Silver just watched me. I put some of my shorts, blouses, and dresses. Yung pakiramdam kong magagamit ko ang pinagdadala ko lang.

Somehow, my mind wandered off again. Everything just happened so sudden. Parang kanina lang, iniiyakan ko sila Mamu at Tita Kath para wag ituloy ang kasal pero heto ako, nag eempake dahil titira na ulit ako sa condo ni Silver.

"Are you done?" I went back to reality when Silver asked me. Napatingin ako sa kanya na ngayoy nakalapit na pala saakin. "Kunti lang ang dalhin mo. Bibili tayo ng mga bago mong damit."

"Pero may mga damit na ako." I answered. Gagasto nanaman kami sa pagtira sakanya.

"I am talking about maternity dress, Baby. Stop wearing tight pants and uppers. Baka di makabuti kay baby," He looked at my face again. "Nakapagpacheck up ka na ba ulit sa OB Gyn?"

I shook my head. I am so preoccupied this past few days na lagi kong nakakaligtaan ang check up ko. Napahinga lang ng malalim si Silver nang makita ang pag iling ko.

"Just bring all the necessary things. Bibili tayo ng mga gamit bukas, magpapacheck up ka, at kakausapin natin ang nga magulang natin. Now hurry, ayukong mapuyat ka dahil marami tayong aasikasuhin bukas."