Silver Hearts (Completed)

SH21

SH21

I slumped myself on my bed and cried until I felt tired. Nakakaramdam na rin ako ng antok but I can't sleep everytime I think of what happened awhile ago.

I know Silver's just worried. After all, he was thinking that I am his responsibility. Pero hindi niya naman kailangang sigaw sigawan pa ako sa harapan ng maraming tao. And I don't think anything wrong about me going out early to satisfy my cravings. Normal naman yun sa buntis diba?

I remained my face buried on my pillow when I heard the door open. I already knew who entered based on his scent. It's him and I had no doubt about it.

I felt him sit on the otherside of the bed which is beside me. Hindi parin ako gumalaw o lumingon man lang. I felt so hurt. Hindi lang dahil sa ginawa niya kundi sa lahat lahat nalang ng nangyayari. If only Silver could just love me back then I would not have to suffer with all this pain.

I felt him touch my hair and slowly stroke it. Pakiramdam ko e nakuryente ako but I remained stiffed. Ayukong gumalaw. Ayukong humarap sakanyang luhaan nanaman. Nakakapagod na.

"I'm..." Narinig kong sabi niya. Hindi parin ako gumagalaw. "sorry for what I did at the lobby."

I decided not to move. Madali naman akong kausap eh. Mapapatawad ko naman agad siya dahil kahit kailan, kahit anong pananakit ang ginawa niya, sa huli ay napapatawad ko parin siya. That's how I loved him. I can come to the  point of being martyr and selfless.

"I was just worried. I came to fetch you early pero wala ka. Your room was open and you left your phone. I thought something happened to you." I remained silent while he keeps stroking ny hair. I felt a bit relaxed by this time.

"Just like now. You left your hotel keys on the door knob outside." and he had the guts to sermon me again?

"Look Violet, I am really sorry. I really got worried. I would surely blame myself if something happened to you."

"You don't have to shout at my face Silver." I said even if I am struggling talking with my face flat on the pillow.

"I am really sorry. I won't do it again." Naramdaman ko ang sensiridad sa tono niya but I remain to stick on not looking at him.

"You can go out. Matutulog ako." Yun lang ang sinabi ko. Hindi na muli siya nagsalita pero hindi narin siya gumalaw. Naramdaman ko ang pagtayo niya kaya agad akong sumulyap. Umiwas agad ako ng tingin ng makita kong kinukumutan niya ako.

"Dito na ako. Babantayan kita." Nasulyapan ko ulit na lumapit siya sa aircon at ni adjust yun. Hindi na ako umimik at umidlip nalang.

Nagising ako ng biglang nagvibrate ang phone ko. Agad akong napaupo at tiningnan ang text. Galing yun kay Mamu at tinatanong kung nagkita na ba kami ni Silver. That's really it. They planned this out. Hindi na ako nagreply at hindi na rin ako nagbasa nong iba pang messages. Wala rin si Silver sa kwarto ko. Babantayan? Huh. That's lame.

Tumayo nalang ako at kinuha abg towel ko saka pumasok sa CR. I immediately took a shower. Paglabas ko ng CR, nadatnan ko si Silver na nakaupo sa gilid ng bed. Nakaturn on din ang TV at nanunuod siya. What is he doing in my room again? At paano siya nakapasok? Naalala kong sinabi niya kanina tungkol sa hotel room key ko kaya di na ako nagtanong.

He glanced at me for a second. Tiningnan niya ako mula ulo hanggang paa. I felt conscious because I am only wearing a towel but I ignored it. Pumunta ako sa closet at kumuha ng white cotton short at isang light yellow sleeveless blouse. I also took underwears at pumasok ulit sa CR para magbihis.

Paglabas ko ulit, nakapatay na ang TV. Tumayo siya sa pagkakaupo at tiningnan ulit ako. Tiningnan ko rin siya. He's wearing a dark short na hanggang tuhod, nakadark blue longsleeve polo siya na nakatupi ang sleeve hangang siko. He is wearing a dark gray V neck shirt na nakikita dahil hindi naman nakabutones ang shirt niya. He's also wearing a navy blue shoes.

"It's almost lunch time. What do you want to eat?" He asked. Ayuko parin sumagot pero pagkain kasi yung pinagusapan kaya napanguso nalang ako. God! What's happening to me? I felt like my life's revolving to food now.

"Kahit ano." Tipid kong sagot. Kakain ba kaming dalawa sa labas? I fished for my make up kit at naglagay lang ako ng kunting pulbo at lipstick. I also combed my hair a bit. I took my flipflops at yun ang sinuot ko.

"Okay lang ba sayo ang sea foods?" Parang kusang tumunog ang tyan ko nang narinig ko ang seafoods. I've been craving for that pero wala akong mahanap na kainan dito. I quickly nodded and I saw a playful smile crept his face. Napasimangot ako. Iniisip ba ni Silver na matakaw ako?

Nakaramdam nanaman ako ng inis so I ignored him hangganhlg nakarating kami sa gate ng resort at highway.

"May alam akong seafood restaurant dito but it's 10 minutes away and we had to ride a bus. Di ka ba masyadong gutom?" tanong niya ulit. I shook my head still deciding not to talk. Tinitigan ko nalang yung restaurant sa kabilang dako ng kalsada. Yun yung restaurant na una kong kinainan dito.

Di nagtagal, may dumaan ba rin na bus at tumigil sa kabilang kalsada. Kailangan pa namin tumawid ni Silver kaya nagulat nalang ako ng hawakan nya ang likod ko para gawaran sa pagtawid namin sa kalsada. I  tried to ignore the feeling. I tried to ignore his touches.

Buti nalang, maluwag ang bus nung sumakay kami. Umupo kami ni Silver sa may bandang likod na may pang two seater. Doon ako umupo sa gilid ng bintana at agad umihip ang malakas na hangin sa mukha ko ng umandar na ang bus. I felt cold pero wala akong magawa dahil ang bilis ng bus. My hair is flying too at nahihirapan akong hawakan yun.

I just felt Silver helped me in holding my hair. Inayos niya yun at siya na ang humawak. He asked me if I had any hair ties pero wala akong dala.

"Hold this." Sabi niya saakin which he means my hair. Pagod na ba siyang hawakan yun?  I frowned again as I tried to hold it. Gumalaw si Silver sa tabi ko at paglingon ko, hinuhubad niya ang polo niya. Pagkatapos hubarin ay nilagay niya yun sa magkabilang balikat ko bago niya hinawakan ulit ang buhok kong lumilipad nanaman.

"I told you to stop wearing skimpy clothes Violet. You're showing too much skin." Pagalit niyang sabi.

I don't want to assume but I cannot help but smile a bit by his statement.