Blank Pages: ON HOLD ~ Reylo AU

Chapter 17// "I'll just close this."

I walked into my room and saw that Ben was gone.
"Ben?" I asked searching my room.
As I got more and more scared and concerned I saw that my window was open, which it never was.
I looked out the window hoping not to find Ben at the bottom.
"Ben?! Are you down there?!" I yelled out the window.
Then I felt a hand jerk me away from the window.
I screamed and saw that it was Ben.
Once I saw that it was Ben I ran up to him and wrapped my arms around his neck and rested my head on his shoulder.
I felt his hands slowly wrap around my waist.
"I thought I lost you..." I say holding back the tears at the thought of loosing him.
"Why would you think I would commit suicide?" He asks looking at me.
"Because sometimes getting drunk can cause suicidal thoughts." I say letting the tear slide down my face.
"What's the real reason?" He asked knowing that wasn't the only reason.
"When I told you my family passed away...." I say pulling out of the hug.
"Yeah?" Ben says concerned about what I was about to say.
"I found them." I say weeping.
"What?" He asks clearly confused.
"They committed suicide. My mother first. Then my father." I say now crying.
"Oh my god..." Ben says covering his mouth. He runs up to me and pulls me into a warm hug.
"How did they leave? If you mind me asking." He asks me still in the hug.
"My mother was depressed and she slit her wrists-" I say sobbing and digging my head into his neck.
"And my father found my mother bleeding out and he found it useless to try and help her so he wanted to go with her." I say trying to gather my thoughts.
"He shot himself in the head." I say sobbing and weeping.
"shhh. Rey it's ok. You don't have to tell me anything else." He says rubbing my back.
I managed to calm myself down and felt safe again. He was so good to me and all I did was cry.
"I'm always here. I will never leave." He says looking at me.
"I know." I say smiling through my tears. Then Ben looks down at my lips and back to my eyes. I knew what he was going to and this time it wasn't a dream.
He pulled me close and placed his hand on the back of my neck.
I glanced down at his lips and back to his eyes like he did.
I couldn't take it anymore.
"Just make a move already." I say teasingly. He connects our lips together passionately.
It's like we were creating sparks. Every movement. Spark. Spark spark.
"Hey Rey I--" I heard Papas voice in the door way.
"I'll close this." He says closing the door.
Our lips were still connected but I could feel Bens smile grow across his lips.
"You called me Ben." He said pulling away.
"I did?" I say confused. I realized I had been calling him Ben this whole time.
"Sorry." I say blushing.
"It's ok. I like it." He says smirking and wrapping his lips around mine again.
I pull away and look at him.
"Let's go see that movie shall we?" I say smiling.
"Let's do it." He says smiling back. I've never seen him this happy before.
I grabbed my big bag so we could sneak in food.
"Bye papa. We will see you later." I say walking out the door.
"Bye sweetie!" He yells back.
We get in the car and drive to Target next to the theatre.
"Ok let's go!" I yell before opening to door but then Ben grabs my arm before I could get out.
"What?" I ask turning to him.
He smiles and just stares before he speaks.
"I just need to do this." He says kissing me passionately leaning across the seat and kissing me.
He pulls away and smiles.
"Let's go." He smiles.
"Let's get scared shitless."