Savior

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I laid on my bed and closed my eyes tightly trying to fall asleep. I moved the pillow over my ears and groaned. I hardly ever get any sleep now days. My insomnia is shit and my brain doesn't want to shut off. I have to lay in complete darkness in order to fall asleep.

*****

Since it is summer I just want to spend time with my best friend Cathy.

I decide to drive to her apartment that she shared with her mom, since she lives in Hollywood and I in Calabasas.

"Cat?" I question walking into her apartment because I have a key. "Over here!" She yells. I walk over to her where she's on her laptop, I roll my eyes to see her on the internet stalking Shawn Mendes. I laugh.

We're close friends with Nash Grier. Oh and Matthew Espinosa, I used to date him, that is until he ditched me, okay maybe that's exaggerated but it felt that way. Anyways, I'm completely head over heels for Cameron Dallas though. I haven't met him even though Matt and Nash are his best friends. Whats the deal with that?

I've seen him way before them though. His smile is contagious and you can't help but literally drool over the guy. I've made myself a serious promise. The only reason I'm here today and haven't taken my life, is because this guy. You know you say it aloud and people think "Uhm yeah right, he'll never notice you." or "You're insane."

And of course you think, "My god they're right."

Then there was this one time, it was a video of his. He looked directly into the camera and said "You are beautiful, and you're capable of anything. You can be who you want. I love you." It felt amazing to feel something through just a camera, I literally said, "This guy is everything." out loud.

This is what I told myself:

I'm going to stay here, on this earth and wait for the day I get to meet the guy who endlessly loves, cares, and heals. He has absolutely no idea how much he helps me...but he will.

I can tell I dazed off when I felt a nudge on my shoulder, "Dude, Jas, your phone is ringing." I shook my head then answered "Yeah?"

"Jas, get ready we're taking you to a party!" Nash yells. I groan, "I'm too tired, not today."

"Say you're kidding, come on!" Nash chimes, "Matt will be there." he sings. "Ugh Nash, seriously, I don't even wanna know that, at least not after what he did." I felt a pit in my stomach and it was probably because I haven't ate but either way it hurt more at the mention of Matthew.

Nash sighed, "Okay, alright.. But I'm coming over later!" I rolled my eyes and laid my head in my hands, "I really don't want company, I just wanna take a bath and sleep.."

"Don't do that Jasmine." He warns.

I quickly shot back, "Do what?"

"You always block me out, I care for you Jas, but you push me away like I'm just no one." he says with a worried voice.

"I don't do that."

"You do." He says. "I'm going to sleep." I simply add and hang up.

Well maybe I do that... Quite often I guess. But I'm always tired because I get no sleep. I say bye to Cathy then head back home.

While the water fills the tub, I quickly undress then add bubbles. Laying down I close my eyes but there's a knock on my bathroom door.

"Jasmine?" Nash asks. Should have never gave him a damn key. The door opens and I sink under the water slightly. I goan under the water which causes small bubbles. "I can hear you're in here and I smell the honeycomb bubble soap." He pulls open the curtain and sits on the toilet on the side of the bath.