Savior

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March 6, 2015

Today was the first time I'd be meeting Madison Beer, you know, the girl seen with all the guys. Including Cameron. It made my stomach hurt but I had to meet her and find out if the rumors were true. Of course, I wouldn't just ask her.

I was awaiting Stassie, remember Nash's girlfriend? Her.

She pulled up and smiled at me as I got in. She breaks the silence, "Jack G wanted me to let you know that Mads doesn't know about you two, or that you've even met... He wants it kept a secret." I nodded, "I one hundred percent agree." She sighed, "Okay. Hey, and I hope this isn't weird because Cameron and Madison were seen that one time."

"It's the past." I smiled, I knew I was lying. She nodded.

"She's actually really sweet," Stassie adds. "I bet she is..." I smiled again.

When we got to the building where her party would be held, I immediately searched for her. She was near the main table as she laughed amongst the others.

Emily, Sam's sister smiled and hugged me tightly, "Hey, Jas, come." I smiled and followed her.

Madison moved up and grinned widely, "Hi, it's so cool to finally meet you!" I smiled as well, "You too, I've heard great things."

I really haven't.

She was really pretty. She hugged me and smiled, "We're twinning" I laughed and nodded, "I guess so."

"My boyfriend Jack helped set up earlier but we need help with the decor, come help.." she laughed handing me some ribbon. I laughed, "Yeah no way, it's already so nice in here." I followed behind her and we tied knots of ribbon onto the tables and chairs.

While we finished up, everyone grabbed chairs and we sat out on the balcony.

"Are you and Nash still dating?" One girl asked Stassie. She nodded, "Yeah, but he's been really out there lately, I hardly see him." I felt bad for her, he spent a lot more time with me than her. Madison frowned, "I'm sorry, Stassie." She just shrugged, "I mean it's fine."

Did she even like him? They didn't look as happy as me and Cameron during couple dinners. They hardly smiled at each other. Couldn't imagine being in a relationship with someone that didn't feel the same about me. They carried on to another conversation. My phone dinged so I looked down.

It was a text from Jack G.

Gilinsk: Thanks for going along with not knowing me...

Me: No problem.

Guess it would be better if she didn't know. But then we would be even.

When everyone was finished we all packed up and headed to the cars.

"Thank you for helping out, I really hope you make it to the actual party." She laughed, hugging me.

She was sweet. I think we're going to get along very nicely.

My mind kept thinking maybe she wasn't all that bad. Maybe people stretched the truth. Jack J says he doesn't think she's good for Gilinsky but she seems cool.

But what was bothering me, is the fact she didn't tell me anything about Cameron. You'd think she'd reassure me that Cameron was all mine, that he was just being friendly. Deep down I know what I feel about the situation. But does Cameron really care? Will he sit and ask me how I feel about her? Am I over-thinking the entire thing in my head?

I'm filled with anxiety, my hands, legs, and arms won't stop shaking. I'm overworking my mind and I can't think straight. I need to put my head to rest until I fully have control over my mouth and body.