#8 :: Not Everything Is Shared

10) JESSICA

Today Jasmine woke up and was struggling to breathe and her eczema had flared up. I was scared she had an allergic reaction to something. I took her to the doctor's surgery and got an emergency appointment. I knew she was really unwell because even when she's sick and comes doctors she will manage to play with the toys. Not today. She just held onto me really tight.

As I sat there I thought about the argument I had this morning.

**

Jasmine had ran into the room and was tapping me hard. She couldn't speak because she was struggling to breathe. I managed to get her a glass of water and help her to control her breathing. I noticed that no matter what she was wheezing. She never had asthma so I didn't understand. I called Tasha to let her know I wouldn't be coming in and she asked me if I needed her to drop me to the doctors. I told her no because Sonny is here and would do it. I was trying to wake Sonny but he wouldn't wake so I screamed at him. He jumped up and had an angry look to him.

"What the fuck Jess!! What is the time?" He moaned.

"Time for you to get up. Jasmine is struggling to breathe and her eczema has flared up. I need for you to take us to the doctors." I told him as I grabbed some clothes for him.

"This is what you woke me up for?" He asked then kissed his teeth. I span around so fast. When it comes to my daughter I don't play.

"Yeah! So get up!" I kissed my teeth at him.

"Nah. Get cab or something" he said and closed his eyes. I had to be sure I heard right.

"Why would I get cab when YOU drive?! Get. Up!" I said and threw his clothes at him. He got up and pushed me against the wardrobe.

"Listen...I am trying my hardest to not hit you. But if you don't let me sleep..." He stopped and went back to lie down. I laughed.

"Okay. I will take cab. And after I take the cab I will go to housing and ask for them to put me up because if YOU can't take me – YOUR pregnant girlfriend and YOUR daughter to the doctors then I don't know why I'm still here." I said and walked out the door. All of a sudden I felt my hair being yanked.

"What did I tell you about threatening to leave me? It's rude! Don't do it!" He said and punched me in the eye.

"Oh my god. You are fucking insane." I said and punched him in the face and made his lip bleed.

"Bitch!" He went to hit me and then we both heard Jasmine crying.

"You have two choices. Take me and Jasmine to the doctors or I am leaving." He stormed back to the bedroom and I got Jas ready. We drove to the doctors in silence and I really thought about why in Gods' grace I was still with him. I loved him but I was tired of the arguments, the fights; the abuse. All of it. I needed money and fast.

As I got out of the car I took Jas out and to my surprise instead of coming in he drove off.

"Bastard." I mumbled to myself.

**

"Jasmine Dixon." I heard Jasmines name being called taking me out of my thoughts. I looked up and noticed the doctor was not the usual doctor. For one, it was a man and two, he was cute. I shook the thoughts from my mind and carried Jasmine through to his office.

"Hello, my name is Doctor White. I am the new counsellor and children's doctor here. Mrs Reed's husband passed away and she decided to go back home instead of pursuing a career here."