A FANGIRL'S LOVESTORY (Murphy High #1) ✔

Chapter Fifty-Four

Hello Journal!

Sorry kung pinag-alala kita! Kamusta ka na? Ba't mo hinayaang mabuksan ni Kylie at mabasa ka ng mga kaibigan ko?

Sa totoo lang, hindi ako makapaniwalang na'comatose ako ng dalawang linggo. Behind na nga ako sa mga lessons namin, pero buti naman at magti'take ako ng special class. Hindi rin ako makapaniwala sa biglaang pagkamatay ni Jennie. Ang huli ko lang nakita ay ang pag-aagawan nila ng baril ng kuya niya at aksidenteng nabaril si Jennie.

Nagtataka ang mga kaibigan ko kung bakit napaka-detailed ng mga sinusulat ko sa journal ko. Well ang sagot ay palagi kong dala ang voice recorder ko kung saan man ako magpunta, kaya kung anong importanteng nangyari sa buhay ko ng araw na iyon ay nilalagay ko sa journal ko dito sa macbook ko.

Yung Chapter Fifty-Two, sinulat ko 'yun pagkatapos kong maka'recover sa pagkaka-coma. Pagka'open ko kasi sa Macbook ko ay ang nakalagay sa Chapter Fifty-Three ay Chapter Fifty-Two. In'edit ko nalang iyon dahil gusto kong magkasunod-sunod ang storyang nakalagay sa Macbook ko. At ito namang Chapter Fifty-Four ay isinulat ko pagkatapos kong isulat yung Chapter Fifty-Two. Baka kasi magulat ka journal, kung bakit ko nasulat yung Chapter Forty-Two habang nakikipaglaban ako at nag-aagaw buhay.

Nagalit rin sina Kylie at Jon dahil nagawa kong buksan at manipulahin ang mga computers nila. Ang kwento sa likod ng Special Chapters at ang dahilan kung bakit nagalit ang dalawa. Actually, napagkasunduan naming magkakaibigan na gumawa ng journal within this school year. Kaya nung nalaman nila Dave at Jon na may Journal kami ay gumawa na rin sila ng kanila. Nagawa kong buksan ang mga journal nila sa computers nila at kinuha ang ilang parts ng journal nila saka ko nilagay sa journal ko sa macbook at gawing special chapters.

Siguro journal, nagtataka ka na kung ano ang ikukuwento ko dito noh? Honestly, hindi ako magkukuwento ngayon sayo rito. Isasabi ko lang ang saloobin ko sa mga nabasa ko sa Chapter Fifty-Three.

"Sending My Feelings!

I treasure this journal. I've been sharing and expressing my feelings here. My hopes, happiness, confidence, sorrows, trials, and success are ones that makes this journal. People always asking me how can I think positive things in a negative situations? I just always smiled and said, 'Just remember the JTY, FYI, BIY, PMP, JDI, and LYF. It was one of the amazing lessons I've ever gone through, and I swear, it changed my life forever' again, they asked what are the meaning of those acronyms. So, I answered them confidently. 'Just Trust Yourself, Follow Your Instincts, Believe in Yourself, Practice Makes Perfect, Just Do It, and Love Yourself First.' There are times when my whole world revolves around my family, friends, and my studies. I didn't even think of having a relationship in an early age, because I'm satisfied of the love that my family and friends gaves me. Their loves and cares for me is enough for me.

Some people often saying how amazing I am. How wonderful I am. How brave I am. How beautiful I am. How good I am. How pure I am. But when I looked myself in the mirror, I'm just a simple person living my life with a contentment. Okay, just call me humble, fake person , or whatever. But honestly, I saw myself like that. I definitely thanked everyone who keeps on complimenting me and wished that they had my life. No! Please! Don't say that! There is no life of a person in this world that is not miserable. Each and everyone of us has a mission and everything in our life happens for a reason. You just need to be contented and stay positive!

For being brave? Well, I know it is the hardest thing to learn. But if you accept every single weaknesses you have and know what is right and wrong, I think that's the only way to learn how to be brave. Always stand up for your beliefs and show them that you're mentally and physically right.

Protecting? And Sacrificing? I've done it many times. But the last time I'm trying to save and protect my friends from those bad guys, my fear comes first and my bravery was dissolved. That's the hardest thing I've ever did because I'm protecting them and there's no other way to keep them safe but to sacrifice myself. I felt dying that time but I'm also thankful that my friends aren't in danger in that time. Liked Odyssa said, the sacrifices I made was paid and that was giving me a second life.

Always remember that things happens for a reason. There are some things that are going to happen in your life. It could be either positive and negative. But good decisions will lead you to success. Unsolve problems isn't the end of the world. Don't die living in the past. Everythings gonna be okay in the end, if it's not okay, it's not the end. I'm always thinking of these words that my father said to me and that would be....

'I'm not alone.'"

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