You Save Me - Niall Horan FanFic (Sequel to If I'm Louder)

Chapter 16 - Lullaby

Tears had stained my cheeks. My head rests against the window of the car. I was curled up against the passenger seat. Brian glances over at me as he drives while the girls gave him instructions back to the flat. Damn, I've lived in England too long.

"Katie, are you alright?" He reaches over to rub my shoulder.

"Just fucking perfect." I sigh.

Halo by Beyoncé comes on the radio and I'm quick to cut it off.

"Hey, I liked that song!" Trinity whines in the back before people agree.

"I just... I can't listen to it right now. It relates to the situation too much." I whimper, looking back at her. Her mouth forms an O and she nods.

I always said that I would never date a best friend and I built my walls up so high. I was independent and my own person. Niall came in and broke every single damned wall and they sure as damn well didn't put up a fight. They just let themselves fall. And he waltzed over and took my heart. And they didn't make a sound because I didn't know that I was falling for him until that talk with Eleanor in Bradford. And I didn't doubt our relationship. I just didn't want to give it a try but no. I never doubted it. After Jake I swore to myself that I would never fall for another friend and no It didn't feel like falling. And yeah, you can say that I became addicted to him and his light. I did get my angel, in fact. Because my angel is Niall. He's my savior. He's the reason I'm still sane. Or... I was. Because he's not there anymore.

I know I can't stay made at Zayn forever. He's my cousin. Like a big brother. Almost like Brian. And he only wanted to protect me and keep me safe. He just wanted to help.

He made a mistake. I have to forgive him at some point. Just not now.

The commercial goes off and on comes True Love by Pink.

"Dammit." I change it. Our Song by Taylor Swift which only reminded me off couples and Niall. I change it. Midnight Memories. "What the hell?" Change it. In My Head by Jason Derulo. "Oh my God." Change it. Wanted by Hunter Hays. "For God's sake." Change it. Then came on Niall's solo of Best Song Ever. "FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!" Change it. Thift Shop. I remember Bradford. The ice cream shop with Safaa and him. "FUCK YOU, RADIO PEOPLE! JUST FUCK YOU!" I hiss, turning it to a news station.

"And coming up next is the lastest story. Natie break up. Clearly both has tumbled down so f-"

"WHY?! WHY?! I'm a good person!" I quickly turn it off and curl into a ball. "I don't understand why he's constantly there. In the back of my mind, haunting me every minute of the day and it's, it's bullshit! I need a drink. Someone, please! Get me a drink." I whine, looking at them in the back. They send me sympathetic looks.

"Maybe I can drink myself away. It's not like it will be a surprise to anyone. Apparently the paps have labeled me as 'alcoholic'." I whimper, hugging my knees.

"Katie-" Avery says in the back.

"No! This is good! No. It's great. I'll drink myself away while the love of my life kills himself off, refusing to eat and everyone will leave me alone as I mourn and go crazy eventually. Then when I die-"

"SHUT UP, KATIE!" Conner yells, climbing up to the back seat. Everyone's gasps fulfill the minivan.

I gasp, looking at him. "Why the hell do you keep doing this? What happened to New Yorker Katie? Those guys have ruined you and as much as it hurts you, you need to realize that Niall is no good for you! Do you not realize how awful and pathetic you've become?" He snaps.

I narrow my eyes at him. My hand makes contact with his face. He cries out, holding his face.

"Fuck you, Connor. If you can't realize what happened to me, love, then go fuck yourself. Love ruins people's lives. Let me just shed some advice. Love is a little piece of hell heaven put on earth and it wasn't created to be peaceful. And love is what ruined my life. I'm going to laugh when it ruins yours." I growl. I look forward to find that we just arrived to the house.