How Could I Have Known? (A Josh Ramsay Fan Fiction)

Part XXVIII

This part might be a bit more graphic than what I have been writing, so please be warned. Let me know what you think. THANKS!!

The next months went as normal. The guys were able to put on the concert that they canceled that one night. Josh and I are officially together; we went out to dinner one night and he asked if I would be his. Of course I said yes! I love him, he loves me and everything feels right. I couldn’t ask for more.

We went to visit my family after everything happened. They heard about everything on the news, and they weren’t happy. We all talked everything out and it was understood that Josh would be looking out for me until I got better. Then we broke it to them that we were in fact a serious couple a week or two ago. They saw it coming.

Josh has been acting weird lately. Usually we would spend weekends together because he has been working on a new album and I have my classes. Recently he has been calling off our weekends though. I understand that he has a bunch of work, but two weekends in a row and it looks like this weekend is going to be canceled too.

“Hello?” I hear the front door creek open. “I’m upstairs, hun.” I call down to Josh. “Hey, you.” He says as he enters my room. I am on my bed with my back against the headboard reviewing notes for a test in two days. “Hey.” I say with a smile. “What are you up to?” Josh asks. “Studying.” I say looking up at him. He leans down and kisses me on my lips. He tastes of some strong liquor. I raise my eyebrows at him in questioning. “I thought you were working.” He sits down on the edge of my bed. “I was. The guys wanted to have a drink, but we stayed at the studio.” “Oh, okay. I’m sorry.” I look back at my notes and try and concentrate. I see Josh tilt his head to one side still looking at me. “I promise you I wasn’t out.” “I believe you!” I say quickly. A smile creeps onto his face and I roll my eyes.

Josh crawls over me and pins my hands down. “Don’t roll your eyes at me, young lady.” He says jokingly. “Or what?” I tease and stick my tongue out at him. He leans his mouth down to my ear. “Or this.” He whispers seductively and places his lips on my neck gently sucking on my skin. “Oh…” I let out and shut my eyes. Josh smiles against my skin and continues for another minute before coming up to my lips. He lets go of my hands and I wrap them around his neck and tug his hair. Josh lifts his lips from mine and I look him in the eyes. He balances himself on one arm and places his finger from the other hand lightly on my lips. I follow his finger as it lingers in between my breasts and passes my belly button then stops at the beginning of my jeans. Josh looks back at me and I stare at him as his hand goes up under my shirt. My eyes close as his face gets closer to mine, but before our lips meet he slips off my shirt. My fingers find the buttons on his and work their way down. After they are all undone I move it off his shoulders and throw it somewhere.

Again his lips are at the crook of my neck; my hands trail down his stomach and stop to undo his belt. “Slow down, I’m not done with you yet.” Josh whispers loudly. He moves his lips over mine again, his hand is fiddling with the clasp to my bra which is now being slid off of me. His hands run over and over my breasts making me arch my back. I remember these touches. Each one is more prominent now because my body is healed. He stops kissing me and backs away looking at my bare body. Large hands slowly run down my thighs towards my stomach and stop at my jeans again. My breath hitches as Josh undoes the button and tugs off my jeans. I stare at his hands as they trace back up my legs and pull my underwear down. He leaves one hand on my thigh and crashes our lips together gently sucking on my bottom lip. I feel his hand wander around on my skin and finally make its way between my legs. Slowly he presses his fingers into me, I can’t take the pleasure and let out a breathy moan. He pulls out a bit, but slowly presses into me again. Another, stronger moan tries to escape my mouth, but Josh covers it with his. Our kisses are not as smooth as they normally are because of what Josh is doing to me. Slowly he pleasures me rendering me helpless, all of my strength is put towards Josh’s touches. I pull him close and kiss him, but every time I do a new wave of pleasure wracks my body.

Now we are just kissing. Gently kissing. Once in a while he would run his tongue over my bottom lip asking for entrance. I let him even though I have no idea what to do in return. I try, and he is patient with me. The feel of his piercing on my tongue is so different and I want more.

I push him off of me and hover over him running my hands down his chest. I reach his belt again but go lower to tease him. Josh lets out a low moan and I bite my lip before I kiss him. I slip off his pants and boxers and tease his erection while I suck and bite his neck. Every moan and breathy mention of my name is better than the music that I can’t live without. I leave open mouthed kisses up the side of his neck and then nibble on his earlobe. Josh goes crazy. I grip him and begin to pump bringing more satisfactory moans that buzz from his lips to mine.

His skin on mine is so warm and smooth. I look into his blue eyes and I see something I haven’t before. I try to slow my breathing but he takes me by surprise. I’m underneath him again with his member grazing my opening. He just stares at me when a beautiful smile comes across his face. “You’re amazing.” Josh whispers. I grin, “You are not so bad yourself.” He touches my cheek and leisurely moves his eyes over me, I watch him as he does then connect my eyes with him again. We go though one slow kiss, then he leans his forehead to mine. “Are you ready?” He barely whispers. “Yes.” I answers softly.

Josh kisses me again; another slow, sweet kiss, and then I feel him. My body can’t handle it for long, so he takes it out. Again and again, each time I feel more comfortable. Each time I feel desired and needed and everything. I repeat his name so many times, when finally I am about to reach my peak. My tightening around him brings him to his high point as well, and we both enjoy our last few moments like this.