If I Knew

Chapter Thirty Nine

CHAPTER THIRTY NINE

*NIALL POV*

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"Hey look it's the girls!" Harry pointed out.

We all looked up and saw them walk in.

"Hey guys! Haven't been kicked out yet?" Sonia joked

"Well we've only been here for about 20 minutes.." Liam replied

"Well that's a new record!" Danielle said as she walked over to greet her boyfriend.

I looked up at Janice who was making her way over to me.

"Hi." she said shyly

"Hey there, glad you could make it." I tried to stand up to hug her, but she beat me to it, and just leaned in to hug me in my chair.

"Don't even try, you shouldn't even be at a place like this, so stay seated."

I pouted in a playful way.

"Hey Janice come bowl with us!" Zayn yelled from the bowling lane we rented.

"Let me get some shoes and a ball!"

Janice and Danielle walked over to the counter and grabbed their stuff, and Sonia came to take a seat next to me.

"Hello Niall, how are you?"

"I'm fine, and yourself?"

"Good as well, listen I need to talk to you."

"About?"

"Me being one of Janice's closest friends and being there every single time she cried or was hurt, I'm pretty sure you know what I want to talk about."

"Oh.. yeah..I uh-"

"Sonia aren't you going to bowl with us?"

"Yeah I'll be there in a sec! Just need to talk to Niall for a bit."

"No threats remember!"

"No promises!"

Sonia turned back to me, I was a bit scared.

"Listen, I don't hate you okay, if that's what you're thinking. I obviously hate what you did and how much you hurt her, but I don't hate you. I know you're a good guy deep inside, I'm just confused on how this all happened."

"I know, it all sounds weird, one day I'm on a date with her, the next I was cheating on her, which technically I wasn't because we weren't together or anything, then I end up getting with her best friend, I get into a coma, lose my memory, and now I want her back. I get it, but you see, when I first met her, she just wasn't herself. She acted as if she was going to pass out if I were in the same room as her. How could I possibly go out with someone who'd always be afraid to even talk to me, or get that nervous? I didn't know that wasn't the real her. It wasn't till after I got into the accident that she opened up more. She was so much more confident, and outgoing. I got to meet another side of her, and I liked it. I'm really sorry if I seem like a jerk, because I'll admit, I am and I was. What I did wasn't fair to her, and I really want to fix it. I just want to make her happy, I don't want to hurt her anymore."

I looked over to see Janice bowling, she looked really happy. I wanted to keep her smiling forever, I didn't want to make her cry any longer.

"You're not a bad person Niall, you fucked up once and I'm pretty sure she'll forgive you. She's a sweet girl, just take care of her and don't break her heart anymore."

"I won't."

"Well I'm going to get my stuff!" and with that she was off to get her shoes.

"Hey guys come help me up! I wanna bowl!"