If I Knew

Chapter Forty Two

CHAPTER FORTY TWO

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** NIALL POV **

"Okay, I'll call you later, and I'll facetime you, and I'll text you, and email, and .. and what else is there? Um I can-"

"Niall!"

"Ah! What?"

"Shut up!"

"Bu-"

"Relax babe. You're still going to be in the same city as me for a while. Jeez Niall, I get it, you're busy. You're going on tour for goodness sake. I'll be fine, okay?" She stepped closer and hugged me.

"I know.. I'm sorry. But I'm just a little paranoid. I.. I don't know. I got so close to you in such a short amount of time, I got used to having you around me everyday. You took care of me when I most needed it, and now I feel so attached to you." I pulled away looking her in the eyes.

"I know babe, me too. I really enjoy having your company. You're so fun to be around, but I mean, we have to do our jobs right? We're both going to start working. Not just you."

"Promise you won't leave me?"

"I mean, if there's no cute guys at my new job, then no. But if there is, then.. no promises."

"Hey!"

"I'm kidding! Relax. You're so clingy and over protective it's cute. Shouldn't I be the one being clingy, not you?"

"Are you calling me a girl?"

"I didn't say anything." she put her hands up giggling.

"I'm going to miss your cute little laugh. Are we still on for dinner next week?"

"Of course, I wouldn't miss it for the world."

"Hey Niall! C'mon mate, we have to get going, first show is tomorrow, we need to rehearse and rest." Zayn called from the tour bus.

"I'll be right there! Okay, so I guess this is goodbye.."

"Stop! You're going away for a couple of weeks, but we can still go out while you're around town okay? It's not a really big tour this time, just a few shows in the other countries, but not much, so you're okay. You'll be fine, just breathe."

"What would I do without you?"

"You'd probably be a less clingy person."

"Heeeey!"

"I like it though, so it's okay. Now go, before you're late."

"Okay, bye love. I'll miss you, and I'll see you next week!"

"Okay, me too. Bye!"

We hugged and kissed one last time and I hopped on the bus. I went and sat down on the couch all the way in the back and made myself comfortable as the bus drove away.

These past few weeks have been amazing with Janice. She's absolutely incredible. My parents, and brother loved her. That only made me happier. Maybe she's the one, who knows. It's been a little over a month since we first got together, and it's just.. wow. We're not super serious, but it's not just a random hook up either. We're just kind of enjoying each others company.

Neither of us have said I love you yet.. and to be honest, I'm scared. I don't know if I should say it first or I should wait. But what if I do say it and she doesn't say it back? Maybe she doesn't like me as much as I like her.. Maybe she's just using me, that's probably why she hasn't said I love you. Oh goodness, she probably is using me. And I took her to meet my parents! How could this be happen-