a little collection

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(inspired by the movie "Keith" but made into my own creation)

His hollow cheekbones cast shadows on the rest of his face as he gently placed a cold hand on my cheek. i take my hand and place it over his, trying to warm it.

"why do you always do that?" he asks, crinkling his brows.

"your hands are always so cold, i want to warm them." i respond, and he smiles a little, a bit of teeth poking out.

"you're a special one, aren't you?" he asks. he pulls me closer, and i gasp slightly, and he chuckles.

"you seem more..eccentric in the moonlight. i-" he cuts me off with his finger, placing it over my lips in a shushing manner.

"stop talking." he chuckles, and he places a hand on my chin, pulling me in slowly.

"am i terrifying you?" he asks, his face no less than a half inch from mine. i respond by grabbing the back of his head, and closing the distance between our lips.

he wraps his arms around my waist, kissing me back, and my hands are placed on his cheeks, my fingers feeling every crevasse, sliding along his gorgeous cheekbones.

we break apart, and he begins to kiss along my collarbones, gently though, as if he's trying not to break me. i pull him back up, and he looks at me, his piercing blue eyes brighter than ever.

"damnit.." he breathes.

"what is it?" i ask.

"i didn't expect to fall for you like this. i don't think i wanted it to happen. but it did. and i'm going to break you when i say that nothing can happen between us." he says, and turns around on the hill, walking down.

i feel shattered. i race after him, grabbing his arm.

"why can't you fall for me? why can't we be together? what has you so bent on being this closed off kid who won't let love in? face it, you're in love with me. give me one reason why you can't love me?" i shout, scaring off birds.

he turns around, tears forming in his eyes.

"i've never......i've never truly loved someone like this. i'm scared, okay? you're funny, beautiful, smart, you don't deserve some low life like me. i don't want to ruin your reputation. okay?"

"i don't care about that. i care about you. and you've told me, 'don't reach for the stars. touch the galaxy.' and that's what i'm doing. you're....you're my whole galaxy. i don't want to lose you." i begin to cry, tears flowing down my face.

he has a pained expression on his face. i can tell he wants to hold me, but he holds back. i gently touch his face, holding it so it faces me.

"hey, i love you, okay? you're smart, funny, sweet, caring, beautiful.....you're also different. you have all of those amazing qualities, and that all ties into this intricate character that i want in my life.

"i get it. you're scared. so am i. can't we make this work?" i ask.

he begins to cry, and tears silently flow down his face.

"please, don't......i don't want to hurt you. i want you to be happy. you'd be happier with someone else other than me." he chokes.

"don't you understand? you'll hurt me by leaving. i'm happiest with you. you and you only. i've never known what real was until i met you. and now my eyes are open. and it's you. it's been you."

"i...i'm sorry." he pulls away from my hold, his tears sparkling in the moonlight.

"please don't send me away. i want you." i sob, and he turns away, leaving. i call his name over and over, and as my voice dies, i fall to my knees, landing on my bottom, sobbing harder than i've ever had before.