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How am I even feeling?

I thought I had moved on, but I'm back at square one

I still have feelings for you

I should hate you, but that's not who I am

I will always hold a special place in my heart for what we had

I still want more

But I know it's crazy

I leave for school in almost a month

And long distance has never been in my area

But for you?

I don't know

If what we have is truly special

Even if you don't want me back

I won't live in a world of what ifs and wonder what could've happened

I've definitely changed since our breakup

I'm learning to give people space

I'm learning to overreact less

Throughout my learning, I've become a better person

I love the friendship we have now and I'm scared to lose it

I know you wouldn't turn me away but I always overthink

Whenever I come over, you always make sure I'm comfortable

When we walk with your friends, you always stick by me so I'm not alone

While these things don't seem like much to you

They mean a lot to me

I am always hesitant and overthink, which I will always work on

But I know for a fact that I still want you back

But I don't know if you would take me back