If Only...

We All Make Drunk Mistakes...

I sat on a stool, Hulk to my right, Lewis to my left. Lewis drank some kind of whiskey as Hulk was drinking a mixed drink, I thought it was gin and tonic. My eyes focused on my water.

"Come on, do a shot." Lewis passed me his vodka shot.

I stared at it and took it in one go. The liquid didn't taste good and according to the two men next to me, my face showed it. They laughed as I quickly drank my water.

"Dude, your face!" Hamilton laughed as Hulk patted my back.
"Fuck you, man." I pouted. "Why would you let me drink that?"
"Priceless." Hulkenberg shook his head.

We turned around to look at the dancefloor. Girls trying it on with the F1 drivers, most got rejected by them. Even single drivers found it more fun to dance with each other than the girls. Dan rushed over to me, smiling from ear to ear.

"I've pulled." He kissed my cheek.
"Wear a rubber and have fun." I kissed his forehead.
"I'll call you!" He waved as he left.
"At least one got pulled." Lewis muttered.
"Go ahead guys, get some." I chuckled. "I don't need a babysitter."

And with that, they got up and left. Daniil was dancing with Sebastian and Carlos, laughing their way through their moves. Massa, Bottas and Kimi sat at a table, chatting, probably shouting. I wished I had done this in the first week, they made me fell at ease. I started to realise that they were somewhat a family away from family. My eyes locked on Max. A girl was trying to get his attention. Whispering in his ear. His face hardened, whatever she said, made him mad. I got up and walked over to them. The girl touched his chest, caressing it. His eyes met mine, they were asking for help. Her hand went down to his crotch, here I was again, getting angry. My lip between my teeth, hands on his shirt, the fabric tucked between my fingers. Before I could register what happened, I had already pulled him to me, my lips upon his. I had missed this but I hadn't forgiven him. As his tongue asked for entrance, I pulled back. My eyes looking at his for second before moving back to his lips. As I had let him go, I turned on my heel and went back to the bar.

"A vodka and a beer." I muttered as Hulkenberg sat himself next to me. "Don't ask."
"On me." Hulk told the bartender as he had placed the drinks in front of me.
"Thanks." I downed the vodka before washing away the dirty taste with beer. "I owe you."
"I'll keep it in mind." He ruffled my hair as I stared at my drink.

I wasn't letting myself move on...

I slowly drank my beer, not in the mood for a fight, not with Max or the girl. A sigh left my lips. A hand touched my shoulder, I didn't respond.

"Jade?" Max
"Yes?"
"We need to talk, let's go back, okay?"

I nodded before finishing my beer. The walk was long, silent and a bit wobbly. In my own mind I was sober, I bet sober people could easily tell I was drunk. It felt like forever when we finally got back. I placed myself on the couch, tiredness coming over me. My eyes shifted as he sat across from me.

"Why?"
"Why what?"
"Why kiss me?" Cause I wanted to taste your lips one last time. "You could've just pulled me away."
"Why did you kiss back then?"
"Cause I want you."
"You say you do." I sighed, rubbed my face. "And if things get 'hard' you go and take whoever home."
"I just don't know, how to show you."
"You'll figure it out." I kicked off my shoes and passed out.

Head heavy and a slight pain, hangover. Mouth dry and throat scratchy. A yawn left my lips as I sat up. Slowly making my way to the kitchen, to pour myself a glass of water. My phone was still in my hoodie, that I still had on. I grabbed it and turned it on. 1 text from Dan and 2 from Hulk.
My eyes rolled as I opened Dan's text first.

'From: Dan, the princess man.

Why did you let me go with her?😫'

I chuckled as I answered him.

'To: Dan, the princess man

You said you'd pulled.😂
I don't do cock blocking.😂😂

Hulk was just about me getting home safely. So I texted that I got home safe and past out on the couch.

"Morning." Max walked in, in just his boxers.
"Morning." I nodded, trying not to stare at him.
"Had a good night sleep?"
"Yep." This sucked arses. "You?"
"Yeah, I did."
"Good, Imma go shower." I placed my glass in the sink and left the kitchen.

I wasn't capable to get through this. He made it hard on me on purpose and I was making it hard for myself. As I finished showering, I heard Max leave, he needed to work out. I took the time alone to do laundry and clean the apartment. When I was done, I quickly changed into a black skinny jeans and an oversized MxPx tee. Doing my hair in a high ponytail, applied some eyeliner and mascara. The door opened when I was done. Already had set up laptop and camera to film his living room.

"Where are you going?" He licked his lips.
"Nowhere, just editing and recording you." I settled myself in the kitchen, behind the laptop. "And if you feel like using your phone to record yourself, please send them to me, thanks."
"I will." He walked over to me, soon he was standing behind me. His hands resting on each side of mine, on the table. "My dad, his wife and baby sister will becoming over."
"I'll be out your hair when they arrive." Heartbeat sped up, go shower Max. "You should get ready."
"Join me." He whispered in my ear.
"This isn't showing me, you care." I pointed out, he was using my sexless life, he did it well. "They staying here?"
"Yep, we'll be sleeping in the living room."
"Alrighty."

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I apologise for the lack of updates. Life is getting the best of me, at the moment.