Watcher (KSImon)

Forty Two

Simon's POV

I danced all the way back to my loft, and jumped onto the sofa, sighing. There was a knock at the door, and I assumed it was Ethan, who constantly forgot his keys, so I opened it. It was Em. She was wearing a raincoat and was holding a very wet umbrella. She peered into the room a bit nervously. 

"Is Ethan here?" Em asked, looking very upset. 

"No.... he's up at Tobi's place. I'm pretty sure he'll be back in a few minutes. Do you want to go up there or..."

"Can I just stay here?" She asked, playing with her hair fretfully. 

I nodded and ushered her in. Even though I understood something was bothering her, I didn't want to mention it. Awkwardly, we sat on the sofa together, staring at the blank TV. I needed to break the silence, so suddenly, I blurted,

"I kissed JJ."

She just looked at me and smiled a small bit. A look you would give to a small child whilst giving bad news.

"Si... I need to tell you something about JJ."

"What?" I suddenly became protective. He had done nothing wrong. That I had known of, at least.

"He can be....." Em thought on her words, "indecisive."

"What do you mean, Em?" 

"In those years you were gone, he skipped from one person to the next. Mostly girls, actually. I'm pretty sure it was a cover to keep us from knowing he was gay."

"Are you serious?" I started to shake. Why would JJ ever do that?

"Si, you bring out JJ's calm side. The side we all love."

"Is that the only reason you guys want me here?" I growled.

Em looked offended, "of course not! Why would you ever think that Simon? You're one of the most lovable, sweet, kind, caring-"

"DOES EVERYTHING THINK OF ME LIKE THAT?" I screamed at Em.

She flinched, touching her stomach gingerly, giving me a terrified face.

My vision was a bit blurred. All I could see was anger. Was I always the loving, kind, sweetie that was in the group to make others feel better about themselves? Slowly, my eyes cleared up and I saw that Em's eyes started to water. 

"Oh no," I shook my head, "why did I explode I never explode. I'm so sorry Em. I didn't-"

Em shook her head, "it's JJ. I bet my life on it. You may bring out the best in him, but he's never brought the best out in you. Do you remember back when we were 16? You were sitting at the football team's table, right next to JJ. I came up to you and asked if I could sit with you. My other friends were just being pains that day. JJ started to nod, and opened his mouth to say yes, but you stopped him and scoffed, saying why would we want a girl at out table? It hurt, Si, especially coming from you, someone who doesn't stop caring about others, no matter the cost."

I couldn't speak. Now that she said it, I remember that day vividly. JJ had made the football team that year, and we were celebrating the achievement. I didn't want Em to ruin the moment between us, whatever the moment even was, and panicked. 

"Simon. I just want to tell you. JJ might not have broken out of his old ways. He may not be fully committed to you, as much as he really wants to and tries. JJ's personality is... too explosive to be calmed."

"But don't I bring out the best in him? Doesn't he-" I sputtered. On queue, Ethan walked in, humming a little song.

"Hey Simon!" Ethan called, "I wanted to ask you a little favor! It's about E-" He saw Em sitting next to me on the sofa. She was playing with her hair once more, "Hi Em!" He smiled brightly.

"I need to tell you something," she whispered. 

Ethan's eyebrows knit together, "What is it?"

"Can we talk in private... please?"

I stood up, "I'll go," and I went back to my room, though I couldn't help but be curious, I left my door open a small crack.

I sat at my desk. Pretending to scroll through my Twitter, but really eavesdropping on their conversation.

"Ethan. I don't know what happened, but, I don't know if..." Her voice became quieter.

"Em... what are you saying?" I heard the anxiety in Ethan's voice.

In the last words, I froze with shock, "Ethan, I'm pregnant."

Ok. So this may or may not be an experiment chapter, depending on if you guys hate it or not. Tell me in the comments what you think, cuz if you don't like this I won't continue on this path. In my opinion it would make the story REALLY EXCITING but idk that's my midnight brain thinking.  

See you in the next chapter :)

-Emma xx