She Rises

Chapter 34

Jace P.O.V.

This 20 minutes is going so slow. I feel like I've been waiting for forever. I don't know how to confront her. I mean, what do I say? I don't want to anger her, but I have to know. Just when I thought I couldn't take it anymore, my doorbell rings. As I get downstairs to open the door, I see Lily is already there.

"Jace! Who's here?" She asks me, excitedly.

"You remember Haseya?" I ask her.

"Duh, she was that pretty girl that I told not to hurt you." She says with a big grin.

"Well, that's her, waiting at the door." I tell her.

"Oh, ok!" Giving me a big smile while I answer the door.

"Hey babe!" Haseya says, giving me a hug.

"Hey, love." I tell her, hugging back.

"Well, hello Miss Lily, how are you doing?" She asks my little sister.

"I'm good! Jace is supposed to come play dolls with me soon. Do you want to play also?" She asks.

Haseya looks at me, asking for an answer. I just shrug my shoulders. To me, it all depends on how tonight goes.

"Let me talk to Jace, and if I have time, I will come up and play with you. I can't make any promises though." She tells me sister.

"Ok! I will see you soon!" Lily says, running back up the stairs.

"Let's head up to my room." I tell her.

As we're heading up the stairs, I'm worried, worried about what she is going to say. I honestly don't know how I will react. I'm not going to leave her. I'm not going to be that guy that just runs away if she needs help. I want to be there for her. I want to help her. That's what boyfriends are supposed to do, right? As we get up to my room I sit at the head of my bed and gesture for her to sit next to me.

"So, what did you want to talk about?" She asks me.

"Babe, I've noticed some weird behavior with you." I tell her.

"W-w-what, I, I don't know what you're talking about?" She kind of stutters, looking really nervous.

Now, I know something is up. She never acts like this.

"Yes, you do. I know you babe. Something is wrong, please tell me." I ask her.

"There is nothing!" She starts to look angry.

"Haseya, please, be honest with me!" I start to get angry myself.

"There is nothing to tell." She states.

Well here goes nothing.

"Babe, I've been researching, I know you can't be pregnant, because we haven't gone that far. I know you don't do drugs. You've only drank that one time. The only other thing I can think is that you are over using peyote." I tell her.

"I-I" she starts to stammer.

"I've looked it up babe. I remember one of the conversations that we had, you told me how you would smoke it, but it was only a couple of times. That was the only other thing I could think of. So please be honest with me. Have you been over using it?" I ask her.

I can feel my eyes start to fill up with tears. I'm afraid of hearing the answer, but I think I already know. I start to hear her cry. I look over and there are tears running down her face.

"Jace, I don't know why! I don't know why I started doing it. I miss her!" She is full on crying.

"Miss who baby?" I ask her.

"My mom Jace. When I smoke, sometimes I see her, and it feels real. I talk to her, and I know it's in my head, but sometimes, I want it to be real." She tells me. She looks broken.

"Baby, you know you can talk to me about anything. I'm always going to be here for you. But, this, it's got to stop. Everyone is noticing something different and I know they are about to question you too." I tell her.

She looks up at me, a little bit of fear in her eyes. I know she doesn't want anyone else to know.

"Please, please don't tell anyone. I don't want anyone to know!" She pleads.

"Baby, I would never tell anyone. I love you, and only you. I want you to remember that. I'm here to help you, with anything. I just want you to be honest with me. I can see what it is doing to you. It's not healthy. Please, let me help you." I ask.

She puts her head down, tears slowing down. I put my hand under her chin, and lift her head up.

"Please, no more tears. I don't like seeing you cry." I tell her.

"Jace, I need help. I need help before it gets worse. I don't like feeling like this. It's just, when I don't have it, I have these mood swings and I don't want to snap on anyone that I love." She starts to tear up again.

"Hey, none of that. I will be with you the whole time. Plus, there is a party on Saturday, maybe that will keep your mind off it." I tell her.

"Yea, that would probably help. Thank you, Jace. I'm glad I have you." She says, giving me a big hug.

"I'm not going anywhere. I promise." I tell her.

"Can I just rest here?" She asks.

"Yea, we will go play dolls with Lily after you get some rest." I say, as she lays her head on my chest.

With that, I see her start to fall asleep. I know it will take some time, but together, we can do this. My eyes start to close and I fall into a peaceful sleep. Knowing the truth, helps ease me.

Hello Peaches!

I know, not the greatest chapter.

Up next though, the Halloween party.

And maybe some Haseya/Amber drama!

Who's excited to see that!?

I know I am.

Love you all!