Saving Diana || One Direction

Hospital- Josh's pov

Carrots Are My Thing

Diana was still unconscious, it was 3 days later 30th December 2013 and I was still reeling from the realization that Diana had tried to kill herself and I’d done nothing about it. Danielle had explained that she knew she was depressed but was trying to overcome it, I was blind to not notice it I am I should have realised sooner. She meant everything to me and I couldn’t lose her, I just couldn’t.
I was sitting next to her on the bed she had been sleeping for the past 3 day...s. I felt her hand touch mine, was she coming around?
“Doctor” I shouted
A woman came running in, by now Diana was stirring the female doctor told me to get out the room while she did something, she came out again a few moments later, a little red in the face she was clearly on a long shift or something.
“You can go see your wife now” She panted
“She’s my girlfriend and thank you” I replied slipping into the room, she immediately pulled up one of the hospital blankets over her scared arms.
“I’m not stupid, Danielle told me everything” I said
“Josh please” Diana pleaded
“What do you want me to say? That’s it’s okay? Because it’s not okay this is all my fault okay how do you think that makes me feel okay seeing you like this, you could have told me Diana” I replied
“It was never because of you Josh” She whispered
“Why Diana, why?” I pleaded to know
“Everything I saw was black so I turned my wrists red so the world didn’t see so dark” She replied
“How could you do that too yourself?” I sighed
“It started when I met Joe we were 14 and started going out, he was suicidal at the time, I was his cure and he was my disease, I was saving him and he was killing me. “ She replied a tear running down her cheek
“What happened in the end” I asked
“He left, but that’s not what hurt what hurt was the fact he said he wouldn’t and I trusted him” She replied
“Diana, I love you okay, you have 2 choices hold on to the past and let it destroy you or look forward to the future and let it make you into something no one’s ever going to forget” I replied
“You don’t want me, don’t kid yourself how could you love someone with scars?” She muttered
“Each one tells a story, I love you okay, I spoke to Danielle sister she relapsed while trying to recover, she says it’s inevitable, I’m going to be there for you if you just let me” I replied
“You’ll only change your mind” She responded
“What if I don’t” I sighed
“I’m sorry Josh I really am, I just couldn’t help it” She whispered
“Well I can and im going to do what ever it takes for you to get better” I replied
“We’re going fight and argue, all the time” She responded
“I’d rather fight with you than love someone else”
“I love you Josh” She sighed
“I love you too”

A/n sorry this is so short and practically shit but I wanted to get it uploaded im on my bestfriends laptop at the moment, I will improve this chapter during the week, im really busy so next chapter update probably in about 6 days eghhh this book is rubbish, well that's my opion comment yours bellow, im wearing 1D nails at the moment while sitting on my bathroom floor, its a great way to get a cold bum that's for sure, I might sleep in my bathroom as will my best friend, I think I need help. love you guys ~Corky