Saving Diana || One Direction

The aftermath part 2- Josh's pov

(Josh’s pov)

Diana was still unconscious, it was 3 days later 30th December 2013 and I was still reeling from the realization that Diana had tried to kill herself and I’d done nothing about it. I had to talk to Danielle, she clearly knew something that I didn’t and by the end of the day I would, I had to. I looked up, to see Niall and the rest of the boys standing in front of me, they’d cancelled tonight’s show to be here and I was so grateful for that, they meant everything to me, like they were my brothers or something.

“Are you okay, that’s a stupid question of course you’re not okay, anyways we got you coffee, wait do you drink coffee, or do you like tea, oh my god I am sorry josh, like honestly” Niall started before Liam gently nudged him in the waist with his elbow, trying to tell him to shut up.

“Thanks, yeah coffee sound nice” I replied taking the cup of coffee which was resting in Niall’s hands.

“How is she?” Liam whispered

“I don’t know, I’m not allowed to see her” I swallowed the lump in my throat. “What if she dies Liam” I reply a gentle tear escaping my cheek

“She won’t” Liam said firmly

“You don’t have to be strong for us Josh, we’re here for you” Louis said noticing the tears escaping my eyes.

“Every little thing she did, every tiny little thing she did, was perfect and now I’m about to lose her I know that those little things weren’t so little after all” I said shaking

“You’re not going to lose her okay” Zayn stated

“Josh Devine” A voice called out. I turned around to see a tall female doctor, dressed in her blue tatty uniform holding a clipboard, with a fake smile on her face looking directly into my direction.

I was sitting next to her on the bed she had been sleeping for the past 3 days. I felt her hand touch mine, was she coming around?

“Yes?” I answered

“You’re with Miss Cameron right?” She asked

“Yeah” I responded fear bouncing around my insides

“She’s stable, you can see her if you like?” She responded

“Go on Josh” Harry pushed me forward

“You’re sister is very weak” I interrupted the doctor

“She’s my girlfriend, not my sister” I corrected her

“Oh Sorry, anyways I’m Doctor Blazington, I’ve been the nurse following Diana since she arrived here, before you see her, you need to answer some questions.” She told me

“Okay”

“Now considering the state of Diana’s injuries I’m surprised she’s made it through this far, now we haven’t told you what is wrong with her in much detail because well it’s going to be hard to hear. We have 2 theories, we haven’t tried to figured out which ones correct since it hasn’t mattered till now, the first theory, is that someone did this to her, someone wanted her to feel pain for whatever reason, this is the less likely theory but still plausible” I cut the doctor off

“Diana never did anything to hurt anyone, that’s not what happened, what is the second theory” I stated adamantly

“Okay well Mr Devine, if the first theory is wrong, then she did this to herself, she intended this” She softly said

My whole world came crashing down.

“No, no that’s not true she wouldn’t do that, she couldn’t do that she’s my girlfriend I need her, you’re lying” I shouted as I sank into the wall, my mind hurting from running over thoughts.

“Josh, what’s wrong, what’s happened?” The boys shouted running over to me

“Would you like a minute Mr Devine?” the nurse asked

I tried to speak but the words just couldn’t come out. I finally managed to stumble out a sentence.

“She, did it, Diana did this”

“What?” Niall shouted

“Diana did this to herself, look Josh I can explain everything, please” A voice came from behind us. I saw the shadow move and a hand being held out in front of me, Danielle’s.

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“Diana went through some things, she didn’t exactly have a nice childhood, and school life was hell for her, she’s had only one year when she’s been herself, and that year has long gone, she needs you, not anyone else, you Josh” Danielle explained after taking a sip of coffee, she’d got me one but I didn’t want to drink anything.

“One good year?” I questioned

“She told me about it a while back, a few days after I figured it out” Danielle started

“Figured out what?” I asked

“I’ll get to that later Josh, you need to let me speak” She replied

“She met this boy, he’s transferred to her school and was in her class. His name was Joe he had depression, and was a self-harmer but that’s not really important. Diana didn’t know this and he asked her out, she obviously said yes but she found out only 2 days later, as did the rest of the school. She helped him, a lot. It was sorta like she was his cure but he was her disease, so she was saving him and he was killing her” She ended

“Wait” I paused “Are you trying to tell me Diana’s depressed?” I asked

“Josh, she’s more than that. She’s suicidal that’s why she was in the woods, she tried to end it all” She whispered

My hand flew over my mouth, she was ill and I made her that way.

“This is all my fault” I muttered

“Josh” Danielle sighed “You’re not the cause of this, Diana had a really hard life her parents are never there for her, she got bullied, had not friends, and then she a glimmer of hope in the darkness. Joe. But he let her down too, he killed himself and with that a piece of Diana died too. When everyone you’ve ever loved lets you down, you stop believing things are going to change, you lose all hope. She’s weak Josh, she’s got depression, all she’s ever felt is pain, uncontrollable pain which is why she seeks comfort in that blade, because she’s in control of something”

“I cant deal with this”

A/N *MUST READ*

Okay, so when I started this book, my writing skills were pretty poor, they still are considering the amazing writing I see when I read fanfictions on wattpad, but they have improved as I’ve worked on them a lot but that means the starting chapters a pretty poor, so I shall be improving them as well as updating, in order for this story to flow, small details in earlier chapters may change, so if something seems unusual, then it does fit I’ve just added something extra in. I’m trying to make chapters as long as they can be, because I know the whole of the rest of the story line until this book ends, I think I’ve got about 5 chapters left which makes me sad because this is the most popular fanfic I’ve written and I don’t want it to come to an end. I would also really like to see this book reach 10k reads which isn’t that much considering a lot of fanfictions have over 1million reads, but to me 10k is a hell of a lot, so I’ve decided to update every 500 reads, which should get me to 10k before the book ends. Most of the time I get about 500 reads in about 3 days which is insane so the updates won’t be very long apart, so it will defiantly be over by February, which is when the preview of my new fanfic goes up wooo! Whoa, this is a long author’s note but I need to tell you all of this so I’ll carry on. The new fanfic is the sequel to heartbreaker, so go check that out, it contains, Liam, Niall and Louis as well as Dan Howell. Thank you guys so much if you’ve stuck to Saving Diana, it means a lot! Please vote and tell me in the comments what you think about this chapter, as I never get comments, anyways when I do I read them all, and try to respond to as many as I can.

Love you guys ~Corky