Torn (harry styles)

11- We Lose We Gain

I woke up this morning feeling refreshed and happy; this is the first full night sleep I've had in weeks. And also the first time I haven't cried myself to sleep in a while. It feels good to be fully rested for once.

It's weird that my hole mood is reliant on my relationship with Harry, it seems that if me and him are good...then so am I. I know it's foolish of me to of let that happen. Letting my mood sway with my relationship with a very unpredictable guy. I know I'll end up getting hurt more and more but right now, that doesn't matter.

I'm looking forward to history today, maybe Harry will be nice to me, maybe. I hope we can talk like we did on the bench. He told me about stuff at home, and school. He never mentioned he worked in a bakery though... I wonder what his friends would say if they knew.

Taking Harry's advice from yesterday whether he was joking or not, I wore leggings and wooly cream jumper with uggs and my hair down. I didn't wear any makeup as my skin was looking healthy again and my eyes were brighter and I hate wearing it.

Once I was ready, I walked out of the door. Wishing good bye to my mum. It's weird to think that it was only this weekend that I was staying at home feeling hurt and heart broken and now I'm feeling happy and excited all because of the same guy. Wow.

When I reached school I saw Evie. She looked sad, she never looks sad. She was standing alone and looking ad the ground. She was wearing denim shorts and a white t-shirt with some vintage label on it and a burgundy knitted cardigan. Her tiny arms were covered by the long sleeves and she looked small and insecure. It's weird seeing her like that, she normally holds her head up high with her shoulders back. But right now she looked like a small mouse cowering away from a cat or something. She didn't look up as I approached her.

" Evie? Are you alright?" I questioned, quietly. Her head snapped up to me and she smiled weakly.
"Yeah I'm fine, thanks anyway." She said half heartedly. Looking away from me.
" are you sure?" I asked, I know she's not. I wish she would tell me what was up. Maybe I could help. Me and Evie normally tell each other everything but I guess she has new friends now.
"I have to go, I'll see you around Skye" She murmured. And before I could respond, she walked away and joined her group. They all looked at me for a second and back at Evie, she shrugged and encouraged them to go. And then they were all gone, which left me standing alone.

I was already late for class so I walk in and take my seat. I sit next to Harry's friend Niall. He seems alright,I barely know him though.
Seems as I'm in a good mood now and me and Harry are on good terms, I feel more confident talking to people. Niall looks nice and he offered me a cup of alcohol at a party once. I took it obviously, when in awkward situations always drink as much as possible.

"Hi." I smiled at Niall as I took my seat. He looked up from his notes and nodded at me.
"Hey"

I listened for a bit but got bored, I hate Science. It's not the practical kind of science. This is biology. And our teacher is so moody. She usually makes us copy out of books but the plus side is she lets us chat. But I've never really counted that as a good thing seems as I've got no one to talk to. Maybe today I'll speak to Niall.

"So, do you like biology then?" I questioned, to start conversation.
"Nah, no not really. I took double in school but I was never really that interested. My favorite subject is music." He replied. His Irish accent was thick, and cute. I smiled.
"Really? What do you play?"
"Guitar and sing a bit." He replied smugly. Smiling playfully.
"That's cool, are you in a band?"
"No, not yet anyway.."
" The white Eskimos are good." I stated, trying to be subtle about bringing Harry into the conversation. I want to know more about Harry. I don't know what his friends think of him...
"Yeah, Harry's in that." He said, as if he read my mind.
"Yeah..."I sighed. Giving him a small smile.
" Are you friends with Harry?" He asked, I don't know if Harry would want me to lie for him or not. So I won't give much away.
"I'm not sure, we never really talk." I said, it's kind of true. But there is more too it.
" Sorry to bring it up, but did he apologize to you about what he did at that party?" Niall asked cautiously. Oh great, he remembers.
"Oh that, um no." I felt myself blush.. Remembering what happened.
"It wasn't very nice of him, hope you didn't take it personally. That's just Harry." Niall chuckled, I scratched the back of my neck and kept my head down so he couldn't see my pink cheeks.
"Yeah, well it was really embarrassing." I laughed to make myself sound more jokey but I'm being dead serious.
"Well if it makes you feel any better, he said you were really hot." Niall smirked. I felt my stomach jump into my chest. Did he? A smile crept across my face. I hope Niall wasn't lying.
"Oh" I giggled.
"Enough about Harry, are you coming on Friday?" Niall smiled.
"where?"
"To my party?" He frowned. I hadn't heard about this party. Not that I expected to of.
"Oh, am I invited?" I said hesitantly.
"I invited your whole group?" Niall looked confused.
"I'm not really in that group." I defended politely.