The Playmate's Deal

CHAPTER 54.5: DANIEL SAAVEDRA (part 2)

"Pero sa tuwing umuuwi ako, madadaratnan ko ang mama mo sa sala na nag-iintay sakin. At kahit alam ni Beatrice kung saan ako nanggaling, imbes na magalit at awayin ako, she will just give me a sweet smile. Na kahit hindi sya magsalita ay parang sinasabi nya sa akin na 'Okay lang, naiintidihan ko'. "

"You don't know how guilty I am that time. I know she's hurting and I though she deserves it. B-but..." yumugyog ang balikat nito.

"But I'm wrong. Your mother, Beatrice, don't deserve all the things that I have done. I make her suffer for the decision I have chosen."

"I felt so guilty. But i make myself believe that, i shouldn't feel guilty. Kaya ng hilingin nya na sumama ako sa delivery room nung araw na manganganak na sya, I just said that I can't coz I will be with Andrea for her prenatal."

"But as always, your mother just smiled at me. And said 'Ganun ba, mag-iingat kayo. Sasamahan naman ako nila Yaya Siony, so I will be alright'."

"Asshole." Hindi na nya napigil ang sarili at nagkomento.

"I know, son. And I can't blame you for hating me. I was really an asshole back there."

"Pero kahit kasama ko na si Andrea, I can't concentrate and keep thinking about your mother. I am still indenial that I am actually worried with your mother, so I keep my cool. Pero ng matapos ang check up ay hindi na ako nakatiis. Iniuwi ko agad si Andrea and drive as fast as I can to be with Beatrice."

"at dahil saglit lang ang check up ni Andrea ay naabutan ko pa ang mama mo sa delivery room na naglalabor. Hindi ako nagsisi na humabol ako dahil nakita kung paano umaliwalas ang mukha ng mama mo sa kabila ng paglalabor nito."

"Ang sabi ng doctor, mahirap talaga ang panganganak lalo na kapag first baby. Mantakin mo, your mother labored for more than 8 hours, but she still manage to give me a heart-warming smile."

"When she's ready to give birth, I am with her. I saw how she suffer. How she endure all the pain just to bring you to this world. Then I remember all the pain that I caused her, but she still giving me a kind and loving smile."

"I come to my senses when I hear you cry for the first time. I feel so much joy and didn't stop myself for kissing your mother. I thanked her for giving me the greatest gift. You."

"I start to change myself and make things right with Beatrice. And I never thought that I can be happy with her. But, Andrea doesn't like the idea. We fought so I back-slide, Andrea is till pregnant that is why I didn't want to upset her. So I start being cold and distant with Beatrice again. She didn't asked me why the sudden change and continue giving me those smiles that makes me feel even more guilty. And the rest is history."

We just looked at each other after Dad end his story.

"Mom, didn't asked you. But I will. Why, the sudden change, Dad? Is it because Andrea is not here anymore? Is mom just your rebound, your second option---again?!" he tried to hide his emotions.