Having No Regrets (A One Direction Love Story)

LUNA'S POV

I'm in love with the shape of you, we push and pull like a magnet do,  although my heart is falling too, I'm in love with your body, and last night you were in my room, and now my bed sheets smell like you, every day discovering something brand new, I'm in love with your body.  

I sing softly along to Ed Sheeran as my phone plays and I do my makeup. I look at myself in my floor length mirror in my bedroom and study myself. This morning I put on a short, red dress with small blue flowers on it with spaghetti straps and it comes just above my knees. I'm wearing black stockings underneath seeing as it's Winter and I have on some black, shiny heels. My hair is in it's usual beach waves and comes to my shoulders and is dyed a dark red. I'd been waiting so long to dye my hair and Lottie pretty much pushed me to do it so I did and I'm in love with it. My bright blue eyes take in all my features...slim, but curvy, my high cheek bones, my red hair, my makeup and I just sigh and grab some red lipstick and put it on. Next thing I know there is a knock at my door.

"Luna! Hurry up! You're going to be late!" Louis calls out and I sigh, grabbing my phone and my red bag before going and opening the door.

"I'm going, calm your farm, Louis." I giggle as I walk past him and down the stairs and hear his footsteps behind me and I walk into the kitchen and Zayn's cooking and I stop in my tracks. "And what are you doing here?"

"Cooking breakfast, the other boys aren't here yet but we're going to work on some songs." Zayn explains without even turning to look at me as I gently place my bag next to the dining room table and sit down as Zayn serves breakfast. A sausage omelette. I quickly dig in knowing I'm going to be late if I don't hurry, and I don't want to be near Zayn any longer then I have to. I say a quick thanks before grabbing my bag and walking out the door after grabbing my car keys and I quickly jump into my black Mercedes Benz and speed off down to College. When I get there I park my car and get out and go to my first class.

I love my classes most of the time, I'm a drama major. I would love to maybe become an actress, or even a singer one day, but most of the time I feel like I'd just be in Louis and Lottie's shadows. Louis is a world-famous singer from one of the most popular bands and Lottie is a makeup artist. I don't think I could ever be as good as them. Plus I'd probably just be known as 'Louis Tomlinson's Little Sister.' 

Fuck, why is everything so complicated?

I quickly rush into class and sit at the back for my first lecture of the day and I sit in-between the girls, Bella and Skye. Bella is a lot more curvy then I have ever been and she has long, jet black hair with light green eyes. Her family is Italian and serves some of the best food...next to Zayn of course...and she's one of the party girls. We met a few years back before college ever started. Then there's the beautiful and popular Skye. Skye has medium-length wavy blonde hair with bright blue eyes, she's super slim and athletic and everyone loves her. She's super sweet and we met when we started the course. We were put in a group of three and I was with Bella and Skye and I guess that's how Skye entered into the group, so now there's the three of us. Plus they both have boyfriends...I'll be forever alone I guess.

The class goes by slowly and me and the girls whisper back and forth about plans for the weekend and what we're going to do. It's freezing right now and should get warm in hopefully a month or so. We make plans to go ice skating on Saturday and then there's this huge college party that night that we'll probably attend. The lecture finally finishes and we all walk out and go straight to the cafeteria. We stand in line while we look at the food, waiting to be served.

"When's your brother leaving?" Bella asks and I look at her.

"Not till Summer, I don't think. They'll be touring around America and the UK, promoting their newest album, and no, I can't tell you anything about the album, and no you can't tell anyone else about this. They want this kept in the dark until the album drops all of a sudden." I say quietly and Bella just nods along.

"Will you have any wild house parties?" Skye grins and I shake my head.

"I think Lottie might come and stay with me for a while in the Summer; that's what she told me anyway. Whether she does or not...is a different story." I shrug slightly before ordering some strong coffee and some chips. It's not even lunch, Luna, what are you even doing with your life? Though I know what Louis would say, 'it's good you're eating again, Luna. You need to.' 

I guess I've struggled with an eating disorder since I was about 14. Sometimes I go days without eating. I don't know why I do it...I just guess it happens sometimes. If shit happens in my life I don't eat, or sometimes I just tend to forget. People wonder how I would forget one of the most basic instincts all people have, but I can't explain it. It happens. I was hospitalised by the age of 16 because of my condition and they don't even have a name for it. They say part of it is depression, but I don't know if I truly believe that....like yeah when I get upset I don't eat but so what? People either binge eat or don't eat anything when upset. It's normal. Though, they said my condition isn't normal and it's not common at all. That's why it has no name and no one knows about it I guess. But mum died a couple months ago and I stopped eating for a while there. I remember it was Christmas and I practically ate nothing. Everyone was worried. I told them to shut their mouths and it was my life. I then left the house. In the cold. And caught the flu. Clever idea, Luna.

"Luna? Your food!" Bella snaps me out of my thoughts and I quickly pay the person behind the counter and thank them before going off to our usual table and wait for the girls.

*

"Anyway, I need to get going, I have to go to the library to get a couple books." I tell the girls after our last class is over and they nod.

"Alright, well have fun!" Skye says, flashing one of her trademark smiles and I nod and smile back and say my goodbyes before leaving. I go pick up a few drama books and a few history books about famous people who have died, cause why not? And hurry out of there, knowing Louis is expecting me. As I'm on my way down the path looking down at my books, I bump into somewhere, and my own books, as well as her own, go flying.

"Oh, shit! I'm so sorry!" I exclaim as I meet a set of hazel eyes.