Having No Regrets (A One Direction Love Story)

Willow's POV

I stared in horror at the barrel of the gun that was pointed at me. 

"Any last words, you whore?" Brian growled as he spat those venemous words at me.

I tried to speak but I couldn't. It was as if his words were choking me and preventing me from saying what I needed to say. The only thing I could do was just lay there and drown in my own fear along with the physical pain he previously caused me.

A sinister smile crossed Brian's face. "Nothing at all? Alright, then. Say goodbye, you fucking worthless bitch." His finger tightened on the trigger and I closed my eyes tightly, waiting for the gunshot to sound. 

That's when I woke up screaming and sweating. I had only been sleeping for what, a half hour? Forty five minutes? Well after that nightmare, I clearly wasn't getting anymore sleep. 

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Later that afternoon, the nurse who had brought me my pills the day before came in with a warm smile on her face. "Hi, Willow. You have some visitors here to see you."

Harry, Niall, Louis and Liam walked through the doorway. Great, the one person I don't want to see is here, of course.

"Hey, how are you feeling?" Niall asked. 

"Physically, I'm feeling a little better. Emotionally, I feel fucking horrible." I replied. "I had a really bad panic attack yesterday."

Liam's eyes filled with concern. "That's awful. I wish I had listened to Luna instead of thinking you were just looking for attention."

"I'm sure you do." I said nonchalantly without looking up at him. 

"Willow, I just want to say I'm really sorry for overreacting when we fought. I shouldn't have acted like a total douchebag." Liam said. 

I still wasn't looking at him. "Yeah, you really shouldn't have."

There was silence in the room for a few moments. Finally, I spoke up and decided to change the subject. 

"So Zayn and Luna didn't want to come?" I asked. 

"Well Luna doesn't want to come back here because it will just remind her of everything and Zayn is staying with her for support and comfort." Harry said. 

I nodded. "That makes sense. I'd like to be away from this place myself. Plus, we still haven't exactly talked things out with each other but after experiencing such a traumatic event, that's kind of the last thing on my mind."

Liam sat down in the chair next to my bed and took my hand in his. "Willow, I don't just want things to be awkward between us. I want you to know how sorry I am."

I pulled my hand away. "Just drop it, Liam. This isn't the time and place to talk about this."

"Do you even still care at all?" Liam had a sad look in his beautiful eyes and for a second, I felt a little bad for him.

At this point, he was just really pissing me off. "Liam, of course I fucking care! I'm just as broken up about this as you are! I didn't end our engagement because I wanted to. I did it because I knew it was what's best for us."

"So the engagement really is officially off?" Louis asked. 

"Yes, it is. Tell your friends, tell your family! Just tell the whole fucking world, why don't you? Everybody's going to find out anyway!" I snapped. 

"Just know I'm here for you, Willow." Liam said sadly. 

"Are you really, Liam? Because you weren't there for me everytime you've broken my heart. You weren't there for me when I was fighting with Luna and Zayn and you weren't there for me when Brian attacked me for the second time. I don't need your damn sympathy." I spoke in a very frustrated tone. 

"Come on, man. Just leave her alone." Niall said. 

Liam stood up and glared at Niall. "Haven't you fucked things up enough? Just stop talking."

"I'm only trying to-"

"I don't care what the hell you're trying to do right now! You're trying to take Willow away from me and you always have been!" Liam cut him off. 

"You aren't even together anymore!"

"So you think that means you have a fucking ticket to a relationship with her? Never in your wildest fucking dreams, Horan." Liam spat. 

"I've been there for her way more than you have! You say she's selfish but you're the one who only cares about themself!" Niall yelled. 

Liam struck Niall in the face. He stumbled back and then proceeded to punch Liam back. Liam pounced on top of Niall and kept throwing punches. 

"I've told you so many times to stay the fuck away from her! You shouldn't have betrayed me like that! How could you be ok with kissing your best friend's fiancée?!"

Louis grabbed Liam and pulled him up. "Guys, this is ridiculous! You're acting like five year olds!" 

Louis let go of Liam. 

"Liam looked over at me with a bloody nose. "Willow, I'm so sorry you had to see that."

"Don't apologize, I don't want to hear it. I'd like you to please leave." I said.

Liam looked like he was about to cry. "Willow..."

"I said I want you to leave so please go, now!" I hissed. "I don't care if you go back to the bus or whereever the hell your heart desires! Just don't stay here! 

Liam looked down at the floor and sighed in defeat. "Fine." 

"We'll be sure to visit you again, Willow." Harry said. 

I stared down at my lap and nodded as the four boys walked out of the room. Liam was being so immature. So was Niall. Liam didn't even seem to care what I was going through right now. He only cared that he wasn't being hated. Unfortunately for him, he was. 

I laid down on my side and a tear escaped my eye. Ever since I let it slip that Luna's pregnant, things have gone to complete shit and they weren't getting any better. It didn't feel like they were going to anytime soon. I wanted to be friends with Luna and Zayn again. I wanted to be with Liam again. I didn't want to be laying here in a hospital bed feeling traumatized.