Having No Regrets (A One Direction Love Story)

Willow's POV

Liam and I got to our hotel room, which was really nice. 

"Does this room have a jacuzzi?" I asked getting my hopes up.

Liam shook his head and laughed. "Nope, it's just a regular bathtub this time."

I pouted. "Dammit!"

"We can still have fun without it. We can do other things to enjoy ourselves." Liam smiled mischievously. 

I wrapped my arms around his neck. "Oh, trust me, I know we can." 

"How do I know you're not lying?" Liam teased. 

"Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off." I smirked. "But it's better if you do." (A/N: If you get those references, you're awesome ;)) 

We started kissing as we stripped each other of our clothes. 

~

Liam and I were laying in bed smiling at each at other. 

"Way more fun than a jacuzzi. You've proved me right, baby." I said. 

"Agreed and don't I always?" Liam gave me a friendly wink.

I hit him in the arm playfully. "Shut up, you."

Are you up for a nice Australian date tomorrow?" Liam asked. 

"Of course I am! I've already had American, English, French and Italian dates so I'm ready for a good Australian one." 

"That's what I like to hear from my girl." Liam smiled. 

"I like the sound of that." I blushed.

"What?" 

"I like hearing you call me your girl." I replied. 

"Well you better because that's what you're going to be hearing for a long time." 

"I wouldn't want it any other way." I looked into Liam's eyes and we both knew we meant what we said to each other.

~

The next day, Liam and I went out on our date.  We went out for lunch and then went to Taronga Zoo in Sydney. It was so much fun. We saw koalas, giraffes and so many other cool animals. I always loved the zoo and it really helped me to take my mind off of everything. 

"Thank you for such an amazing date! I had a ton of fun!" I said. 

"I did too!" Liam replied. "Do you want to go into the gift shop?"

"Sure!"

We entered the gift shop and there were tons of different kind of souvenirs. I ended up buying a cute plush koala. I wanted something special to remember this date by. 

"What should we name him?" I asked as we exited the zoo. 

"You don't know that Luna and Zayn are having a boy, first of all. Second of all, it's not up to us to decide the name of the baby. It's their decision." Liam responded.

I rolled my eyes. "That's not what I'm talking about, you fucking idiot! I mean the damn koala!"

"Oh, right, I knew that." Liam tried playing it cool but it was obvious that he was embarrassed.

"I'm thinking Albert." I said. 

"You're going to name your plush koala Albert?" Liam raised an eyebrow. 

"Yeah, I think Albert is a pretty koala-ish name." I said proudly. 

"Alright, Albert it is, then." Liam laughed. 

~

A couple nights later, the boys had their concert. Luna and I were backstage not speaking to each other, as usual. She looked uneasy about not having Zayn by her side but she seemed to be doing fine overall. It was the medication that made it easier for her. 

"So the boys are doing really great out there." I said in a failed attempt to make things less awkward. I think I was just making it even worse.

"Yeah, they are." Luna didn't look at me and she sounded totally disinterested in the conversation. 

"How are you feeling right now?" I asked. Just because we weren't friends anymore didn't mean I couldn't still be concerned for her.

"Fine." She still wasn't looking at me and I could tell she wanted to get away from me as soon as possible. 

"Luna, I don't mean to-"

"Willow, I'm not in the fucking mood." Luna snapped. 

"Like that's not obvious." I retorted. "If you want to leave, just leave. I'm not forcing you to stay here and have an extremely awkward conversation with me."

Without saying a word, Luna quickly walked as far away from me as she could. I didn't blame her. I knew it wasn't just because she was still mad at me. I reminded her of everything. I reminded her of the shit Brian put us through. I reminded her of the fact that she had accidentally killed him. 

It's not like I wanted things to be this way. I never wanted Luna to fall victim into Brian's trap like I did. I deserve all the trauma for being a stupid, shitty friend, not her. She didn't deserve any of this but I did. Everything that went wrong on this tour was all my own fault. I hated myself for causing so much trouble and I just wished Luna realized that. 

I brought my songwriting notebook with me to pass the time while I was backstage. I began writing some lyrics in it. I poured out my feelings onto the pages and I was pretty impressed with the outcome. I decided to wait until we got back to New York to figure out the music and stuff for it.

There was still plenty of time left until the show was over so I decided to go outside and get some fresh air. I struggled to open the doors with my crutches but I finally managed to do it. I didn't want to be alone but what difference did it make? I already felt plenty of loneliness backstage. 

I explored some nearby parts of the city. Everything was so beautiful. Australia is truly a beautiful country. I sat down on a bench and checked the time on my phone. I had a feeling it would be a good idea to go back. 

~

I made it back and saw the the five guys standing backstage. Liam saw me and worry filled his expression. He stomped over to me.

"Willow Eve Sanchez!" He never called me by my full name. Shit. 

"What's wrong?"

"Where the hell were you?!" Liam looked pissed. 

"I was just looking around the city cause I was bored." I shrugged. "I don't really see what the big deal is." 

"You had me worried sick about you! I thought something had happened to you again!"

"But nothing did happen!" I said defensively.

Liam continued ranting and freaking out. "What were you even thinking?! You could have gotten yourself hurt! The paparazzi could have caught you out there! What if you fell again? What if you had a panic attack again?! Then none of us would be out there to help you!"  

"Liam, calm the fuck down! I'm ok, isn't that all that matters? If it really pisses you off that much, I'll make sure to tell someone next time or have someone with me or I just won't fucking go at all!"

Liam seemed to relax a bit. "I'm sorry, Willow. I don't want to keep you from doing what you want. I was just really scared for your saftey, that's all."

I let Liam pull me into a hug and I knew he had a point. It wasn't the best idea for me to go wandering off alone and without telling anybody but at least it was better than staying here and feeling any more awkward around Luna.