Having No Regrets (A One Direction Love Story)

Willow's POV

"I'm fucking pregnant!" Luna snapped.

My eyes went wide. "Wait, what?!"

"You fucking heard me." Luna replied.

"I know I did but I just can't believe it. How did this even happen?" I asked.

"Well you see, Willow, when a boy and a girl love each other-"

"Yes, I know how pregnancy and sex works, Luna! I took sex ed in high school! I mean how did your life just change so much and so quickly?"

"I don't know. You have to promise you will not say a word about this to anybody." Luna said firmly.

"I promise that I won't say anything." I replied. "How long is it going to be before you tell Zayn?" I asked.

Luna shrugged. "When I feel ready to."

"Well it better be soon because the longer you put it off, the more problems it's going to cause between you and Zayn and then-"

It was Luna's turn to cut me off this time. "I'm not stupid, Willow! You think I'm not terrified to tell Zayn? Either way, people are going to get pissed! I have no fucking clue how he'll react and God only knows what stupid shit Louis is going to say and do when he finds out. I just need time to figure things out. I don't need you treating me like the baby I'm going to have in nine months!"

I was taken aback by what Luna just said to me. "I wasn't trying to treat you like a baby. I just think it's smart to tell Zayn as soon as possible. But you know what, don't take my advice. You do whatever the fuck you want to do. It's your relationship and if it gets fucked up, that's not my problem." I got up and walked into the room with the bunks and laid down on mine.

~

Later, we went out to dinner at a nice restaurant. There was a bit of awkward tension between Luna and I after we had our argument earlier. It wasn't my fault she couldn't be straight up and honest with her boyfriend. I didn't mean to push her over the edge. I only wanted to be a good friend by being there for her.

She avoided eye contact with me but mostly, she avoided Zayn. She didn't even sit next to him and he kept looking over at her every few seconds with a concerned look. From time to time, he'd open his mouth to say something but then decided not to in fear of Luna snapping at him.

Luna had barely touched her salad by the time we finished eating. She still looked so stressed and she was obviously not in the mood for eating anything right now. The whole time, she just played with her salad with her fork. Harry, who was sitting next to her looked really worried about her.

"Luna, you haven't eaten any of your salad. Are you feeling ok?" Harry asked.

"I'm fine." Luna said, not taking her eyes off her plate.

"I hope you're not relapsing into this whole eating disorder thing. We don't-"

Luna interrupted Harry and looked up at him. "I'm not fucking relapsing, Harry! How dumb do you people think I am? I told you, I'm fine so please stop asking me!"

"Whoa, Luna, take it easy. There's no need to get so worked up about it." Zayn said.

"Yeah, whatever." Luna rolled her eyes.

"Luna, what is your problem? You've been so distant lately and I don't know why you're doing this again!" Zayn was very frustrated and I didn't blame him. I would be if I were him and my girlfriend was hiding her pregnancy from me.

"There is no problem and our relationship is just fine so just quit overreacting, Zayn!" Luna scoffed.

"Ok guys, just leave Luna alone please!" I chimed in. "She's been really stressed out about her pregnancy so please stop the fighting already!"

Everyone stared at me wide-eyed and I slapped my hand over my mouth. It was too late to take it back now.

"Excuse me, her what?!" Louis hissed.

Luna shot me a nasty death glare. "You fucking promised, Willow." She spat through gritted teeth.

"I-I know, I'm sorry! It just slipped out!" I really wasn't helping myself in that moment.

"Willow, you knew about this?!" Zayn looked back and forth between Luna and I.

"I'm sorry, Luna. I'm such a fucking idiot. You completely hate me right now and I understand. I should go." I said, quickly getting up.

Niall stood up as well. "I'll come with you, Willow."

"No, you won't." Liam said, also standing up.

"Guys, I'd rather just be by myself right now." I replied, tears streaming from my eyes. They nodded and I walked out of the restaurant.

I sat down on a bench outside and continued crying. My best friend trusted me with a promise and I screwed it up. All I had to do was keep my mouth shut about this one thing and I couldn't do that. Luna was never going to forgive me for this. I pulled out my phone and texted Liam.

W: I'm going back to the tour bus

L: Ok, see you later

I got up and walked back to the tour bus. I got into my bed and after a while, fell asleep.

~

I woke up to hear some voices. I pulled the covers over my head. Someone opened the curtain and walked into the room.

"Willow?" It was Liam.

I didn't say anything or make a sound. I just pretended to be asleep. I didn't feel like talking to anyone right now.

"Willow, I just came to check on you to see if you're alright."

Once again, I gave no response.

"Alright, well, I guess you're sleeping so we'll talk later." Liam said and he walked out of the room, closing the curtain.

I laid there wondering what happened with Luna and Zayn after I walked out of the restaurant. They most definitely got into a huge fight and it was all my fault. They both hated me and most likely never wanted to talk me ever again, I just knew it. They probably didn't want to be my friends anymore. I even got Louis into this mess. He probably loathed Luna and Zayn right now.

I knew it would take a lot more than saying 'sorry' to get them to forgive me. Even if they did forgive me, they probably still wouldn't want me in their life anymore. If there's one thing I've learned a lot of over the past year, is that it's much easier to forgive than to forget. I hoped no one else would be mad at me. At least I could find comfort in the fact that Liam wasn't angry with me.

I wouldn't blame either Zayn or Luna if they never forgave me. Zayn was clearly pissed at me for not telling him when I knew about it but it's not my place to tell him. He should have heard it from Luna before he heard it from me. Luna was pissed at me because I had broken this one simple promise. How would she ever trust me again? Maybe she wouldn't.