Having No Regrets (A One Direction Love Story)

Luna's POV

The next day, I grabbed some shorts and chucked them on before I did my hair in a quick side braid and I then grab a white singlet top and put it on before I throw on a plain, grey jumper before I do some very natural makeup and I quickly put Rain into a cute outfit. 

I'd decided to do some shopping to look for some things for my apartment and I'd already started packing. Well, to be quite honest, I'd barely even unpacked from two months ago. I guess I knew my stay obviously wouldn't be permanent so I never bothered to unpack. I'd hung up a few things but the rest just stayed in my suitcase or bags, and I'd wash them after I wore them before putting them back from wherever I'd gotten them.

I was lucky that the apartment was already all furnished, but they said I could take things out and replace them if I wanted too, which, I didn't really want to. I probably would just change a few things up, put things around to make it more me. Probably some boho things, and I was going to place some of my photos up around the place.

I quickly finish up packing things all in my bags and I find two rings, the princess tiara ring and the engagement ring, and I don't know why, but I put them both on and I stare at them before I decide to leave them on. I'm only wearing them, it's not like I'm going to go and get back with Zayn. Not yet anyway. And I know I won't, because I will not allow myself to go back to him without him working for it. Hard.

I grab a few clothes bags and leave the apartment and put them in my car and I make a few trips back and forth before I grab Rain and as I'm about to walk out the door Liam appears.

"Looks like you're not even going to come back." He notes as he raises an eyebrow and I shrug.

"Well, I think I've overstayed my welcome, and I don't think I'm going to change anything much in the apartment, so I might as well go." I say with a small shrug.

"Does Willow know?" He asks and I shake my head.

"Nope, only you do." I reply and he nods.

"Sneaky." He chuckles and I can't help but giggle.

"I've never been great at goodbyes." I say walking out the door and he comes over and gives me a hug.

"I'll see you soon, Luna." He says with a small smile.

"Bye, Liam." I smile back before I go into the elevator and go down and I go and place Rain in the car before I hop in and I drive off.

I go and park as soon as I've found some cute little shops and I get out, grab Rain's pram and quickly put her in it and I start looking through shops and I instantly start buying things for the apartment. And then I'm buying more baby things. I'm obsessed with baby things now. There's so many cute things that you can buy for little babies.

For a while I get off track, buying baby things, before I go back to buying things for the apartment. I stop off at a cafe and eat some lunch before I continue on and I go and buy some more clothes and decide that when I get back to my apartment I'll start throwing out old ones. I also buy a couple of pairs of new shoes.

As I look at the last shop I'm allowing myself go down to, I feel a familiar presence and I turn to look at Zayn.

"I thought it was girls jobs to stalk you?" I joke and he chuckles.

"I just thought I should start stalking you instead." He winks and I can't help but roll my eyes. 

"Really though, what are you doing here?" I ask, raising my eyebrow.

"Well, I saw you a few minutes ago and I decided to follow you." He says with a small shrug. He then leans down to look at Rain better and he smiles. "Can I hold her?"

"Of course." I say quickly and he gently gets her out of the pram and he holds her.

"She's beautiful, like her mother." He comments and I roll my eyes.

"Yeah, sure." I reply.

"So, I told you why I'm here, what are you doing here?" Zayn asks as he looks at Rain adoringly. Why couldn't my life have been like this instead? Him adoring both of us, us shopping together, cute shit like that.

"Just shopping for the new apartment, I decided to move in today. I wasn't going to but I woke up this morning and just wanted to leave, go into my own place, get settled in, plus it'd be nice to have my own place." I say with a small shrug. He nods.

"Do you realize how late its gotten?" He asks and I grab out my phone and check the time.

"Fuck, it's already after six! How didn't I notice? Well, I guess some New York shops are open later." I say, grabbing something and I quickly pay for it before I go back.

"Lets go out, lets go grab some pizza from that pizza place right near your apartment, and we can take it back and we can have some dinner." Zayn suggests. I almost think about declining, but I should at least give him a chance to let him make it up to me, and there's no way he would've missed the two rings on my fingers.

"As long as you're buying the pizza." I say and he chuckles.

"I'll meet you back at your apartment in twenty minutes?" He asks and I nod and he gently places Rain back in her pram and she giggles. I give him a small smile before I quickly walk out and I place the bags in the car before I put Rain in her car seat and I hop in and drive off.

*

I finally finishing putting all the bags and Rain's crib in the apartment and I gently place Rain in a little play pen for babies before I quickly set up her crib. Tomorrow I really had to go grocery shopping or I'd end up with nothing to eat. I wait for a few minutes and then there's a knock on the door and I go and open it and Zayn walks in with pizza and more Krispy Kreme donuts and he places them on the bench as I shut the door. I also notice he has some raspberry vodka's in small bottles.

"I got your favourite donuts, well, honestly, I just got all the flavours, plus I got you your favourite pizza." He says and I nod. "Did you buy like, plates or anything?"

"Um... yes, yes I did!" I nod quickly going through some of the bags and I find them and put them on the bench and he puts some pizza on each plate and then he goes and places them on the dining room table and we both sit down and I take the lid off my drink and immediately take a sip.

*

For the next few hours all we do is talk about this and that, almost like it used to be. I eat a few slices of pizza and we eventually get around to eating the donuts. I was on my third drink and I could feel it. I was slightly tipsy but I wasn't too bad. I couldn't say I wasn't enjoying myself, because I was.

Zayn even got up, heated Rain a bottle and fed her, and it was probably one of the cutest things ever, if only I could have enjoyed it with us being in the house, being together, being perfect, like we were so long ago. 

I eventually settle Rain down for bed and I smile down at her. She's only four months, but she's started to sleep a bit longer, but she still wakes up every four hours or so, sometimes a little bit more if I'm lucky. 

I walk back out and Zayn's ready to leave and I want him to stay, but we're not together. Not anymore, no matter how much I wish we were.

"You're leaving?" I ask and he looks up at me and he nods.

"Yeah, it's getting late, so yeah, I probably should." He replies and we just stand there for a few minutes, neither of us really wanting to move. I knew it. I knew he still loved me, regardless of the shit he's pulled, he does still love me. 

Next minutes I know, he's lips are crashing onto mine and I don't want him to stop. He takes my jumper off quickly and I take his shirt off before he pulls my singlet top over my head and he picks me up, and walks up the very small staircase before he walks us into the bedroom and shuts the door.